Busy weekend

Had a super busy weekend that just flashed past. FLASH is the perfect word!

Friday:

Had meeting in school from 8.30 to 5. yes. its a FULL Day of meeting. i'm going to be super busy next year!! haha kind of excited about whats ahead yet kind of dread the busy year ahead... After that rushed to Tung Lok to catch up with my ex-coke colleagues for dinner! =) yup yup. kind of miss the aunty uncles( who were the ones who fatten me last year!!) haha.. they were nice to treat me again! haha as i said with them i'm always growing fatter!! After that i rushed home to change and meet john and seph at the bus stop (RUSH) is the word. kind of guilty for being a little late!! but 187 took super long to come! before we caught up with tecky and mj to go to council chalet. finally only reaching chalet at 1 plus(AM)!! We carried on with a little night cycling, supper (or rather morning food) haha.. before heading back to chalet. didnt get to sleep anyway because apparantly the guys were making such a LOUD DIN in the middle of the night SHOUTING and singing (FELIZ NAVIDAD) and crapping. haha until they went out to play psp before there was peace in the room. =) managed to chat with dasen (oops until i fell asleep for short while) haha ya.. when he is just beside me chatting i can still fall asleep =.=

Sat

started playing volleyball under the hot sun for while! before we started indian poker with vodka. =.= yah and on empty stomach!!! hahaha its super fun because for once we are doing mass activities!!! haha.. its super dumb and funny and some ppl got zi high!! haha okay or rather just cranky and sleepy. after lunch the girls slept for while... haha guys.. PSP lorR. BBQ was fun as well with more ppl coming. i think the fun part was when we started doing mass activities again like taking ALOT ALOT of pictures. super crap funny ones.. haha then it was mission soonleng where the guys tried to like squash him and we were singing feliz navidad again!! well.. had loads of fun before leaving to my cg's christmas party. =D haha another round of fun there hanging out. drinking (in moderation) and chatting =D was super tired when i reached home!!

Sun

Church. last sermon of the year. it was on gratitude. Thanksgiving! shall talk about some of my reflections tml =D last day of the year! THANK GOD for such happening last few days of dec. =D

(p.s. most pics are with km, lishi, laiyan and some with me so will only post next time =pP)

Christmas Eve

In loving memory... Ong Ming Xuan..

Christmas Eve

Met up with Matthew and Wei Yang to go to Ming Xuan's grave today. Its been really long since i went (considering how i got lost and left without finding the grave last year)... Bought some really colourful flowers for him =) it was so cheery and bright because we thought since it is christmas we should get something bright!

Standing at the grave, we said a prayer and lingered around. Couldnt help but to think.. where do you think he is now? waiting for judgement day together with us? so.. neither is he in heaven yet? so where where where.. ? As i think back... i give thanks to God. As we reminisce about times spent with Ming Xuan, Matt & I couldnt deny that Ming Xuan had definitely strengthen our faith.. For me, it was to see Ming Xuan struggle to choose his religion when he had all the reason to choose buddhism (since his parents were). But it just painted a picture of how even the last months in his life, God just reached out to him and pulled him out. Everything happens for a purpose, everyone has a plan and purpose. His life was one that touched ours. Five years ago on Christmas eve, he was baptised.. a week later, God took the pain away. Thank GOD.. i'm just really wondering where.. just where is he now..but i'm sure as i strongly remember what i wrote in the book at the wake... "we'll meet in heaven"

I had Christmas eve dinner with my parents. I was given the opportunity to say grace for my family and i was really thrilled. It was suggested by my sister and my parents did not object. I really thank God that i was given the opportunity to do so..

After dinner, went to watch late night movie. =) oh man.. after the movie, we went have supper and mini chit chat session. After which km and ls took a cab home while fartty daddy and i walked home from lot one. hahaha.. OMG i took 1 hour plus to walk home. I was probably talking rubbish and crap and nothing serious (come on its 4 plus in the morning) and PoooR soon leng have to stand my crap!! =D but super long never chit chat already so it was still a good walking session!! just feel dumb that i took out the sermon cds, wanted to tell you about it on the way hm but in the end i brought it back home without passing to ya. =X hahaha..

Christmas

Super nice presents from everyone...! Thank GOD for :

Precious Moments!!! =) was given quite alot *cute!!*

belt and bag from mummy and daddy~!

IPOD NANO!!! (my dearest sister gave me!! *whoooo*)

cute A+ coinbank from my dear buddy!!

cards and many other presents ....

and thank GOD for the most important gift of christmas .... salvation!!

Christmas-early-celebration?

hahaha.. yes. Had a fun dinner with some from my cg today.. okay at least those that came for the carnival (which was rather little!!!) hahaha... just some pictures... to those who miss our dinner... look forward to cell christmas party on the 29th!! =D

ERm ya.. the mascots for the cefc carnival.. haha our cg guys! guess who's in there! anyway.. yeah the cake was kind of to celebrate our bros brotherhood? haha nono or rather mark's and kel's *aheM* *ahem*... hey what are u thinking about... its to celebrate their posting to air force and signaller =D

GOD I SURRENDER tomorrow to you. =) i'm kinda jittery about it but trust God.

Outreach Retreat

Thank God i'm just back from retreat. (emphasise on JUST) because its really kind of like step into the house and on to pen down some reflections to share before i lose my thoughts.

This really short retreat was just a time of fellowship and reflection which i really felt it was great. Basically we just had time of fellowship of icebreakers and supper on the first night before we rest early. No doubt it was a little out of my norm to really sleep early as i usually do not but it did reminded me of how by resting i'm trusting GOD with my time and resting my body. =)

More reflection only came during the dawn prayer and especially personal quiet time. Dawn prayer was followed by breakfast by Willie at greenridge. =) Really had a great personal quiet time of 1 half hour. It made me wonder if i was at home why i just cant afford that same time.

How will you Finish? This was the article for QT.

In Christian life, it's not how you start but it's how you finish.

What will keep you from being one who leaves the race?

Many strong odd are against you, The devil is against you and so are the flesh and the cares of this world. You could become your own enemy.

Those who finish strong are needed more than ever as church multiplies. Respond to God's call "HERE AM I, Send Me".

I'm pretty encouraged by the article. To surrender and say "HERE AM I, SEND ME" and to finish well. . Even as i step into this new ministry, i just pray that i would grow and experience God more. The time of reflection of 2007 and setting 2008 goal was really the best time as i did an evaluation and planning. It was something that was lacking in my previous years that i felt this was really something that i want to carry on doing. Would probably share some of my thoughts later as this year come to an end. I just want to urge everyone of my friends christian or non-christian to sit down and really spend some quiet time reflecting about life. It is something that i wished that i would had done earlier. So i'm just gg to leave these reflection questions that i reflected on.

1) What areas of your life (work/studies/NS/ministry/family/personal goals/interpersonal relationships) do you think you have "finished well" for the year/season? why and why not?

2) What would i have done the same or differently?

3) What is God's call for me in year 2008?

4) What can I do to help myself finish well for year 2008? (i.e. accountability partner)

Come on people.. reflect reflect as the year come to an end. =D I thank God because i've decided to anchor my year 2008 on the book of Hebrews. Lastly, just share this four pointers.

1) Committed to finishing strong

2) Inspired with big picture view of life

3) Run free of the weight of past

4) Constantly trained to go the distance

5) Run in company of happy 'few'

the rest of my reflections shall come later. =)

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THANK GOD. its a short camp coming up. pray God speak =)

On the other hand.. i'm leaving a pile of unwrote cards and unbought presents. I AM SO DOOM! yes. i am so doom. i cant find time to go shop for christmas. D-O-O-M! and yes.. i received my first christmas card from *drum rolls*.....

Yin Hou!! (who.. hallo at least write a NAME on the envelopE!) =p

Fri & Sat

LOl. the past week just really flies. i guess hols really flies pass. Spent most of my time at home and one of the day at school and after that going to swensens with my students (yes. it make me realise its time to treat back like how my teachers treated me) LOL but this trip the band instructor insisted to pick the bill.

Friday: went out with my family to raffles hospital to collect my dad's and sis's report... mm.. its... interesting but trust GOD. then, Went to do my hair =D its neater now! After that went to meet Eugene for dinner. Haha just nice we both cancel our previous appointment. So, we went to pizza hut to eat (and i ate until SUPER full). I must sO say this. we couldnt pass off as 16 years old!! thats how young both of us look! MY GOODNESS!! buying tickets for an NC16 show and we got checked...thinking that would be all? NO! the uncle checked Gene's IC again!! WOW. we look that young?!? NC16 show only!!! haha...

Sat: Woke up early to go for cg..its at SMU this time! yes! sO far!!! but yeah i thought the idea about "light of the city" sounded interesting anyway. I was the only girl at cg today! oh man.. a tipped ratio of guys and girls in our cg..hahaha... since after cg to the time i was gg to meet des theres a lap of 2 hours..the cg decided to go to the Singapore museum out of curiousity. LOL and guess what!! we looked like tourist and spent 2 hours there. YES 2 HOURS THERE! haha was even almost late meeting Des. Met Des and here we started our hike. A hike to find the mystery BLK 177 WOODLAND house. hahhaa and THANK GOD we made our way there safely using our sixth sense ;) It was super funny journey there esp when we reached outside the house and no one dared to go in yet we got stared at by their funny neighbour... Oh man. i can only say.. please dont make me laugh at the wrong time. Anyway, after i managed to stop my laughter we struck a deal that i press the doorbell and she'll say "hello aunty". SO i pressed the doorbell.. *opens* .. it was Joseph! not fairrr u no need to say "hello aunty" =pP hahaha... so.. the journey goes on by John's parents sent des me and seph to SAFTI to see John's and Edi's commission parade =)

John: buddy.. =) cool cool. thanks for "dinner" which you werent present... =.= and.. its the thoughts that count so please dont complain about the crumple letter and crushed chocolate! hahaha.. and i prayed hard okay! so you've really been blessed by good weather =) wheres the matchmaking agent SIR! LOLx SIR SIR SIR.

Edi: di! i'm SO proud of you. =) really really! so proud! because i know this is the day you've been looking forward to.. and through all those tough training and tough times you been through.. you did it! =D and i'm proud to be there to see you commission. hur hur...7 years of friendship and i'm really PROUD of yoU!!! =D SIR ! times get tough. press on.

After the parade... we went to eat at fish and co with joseph des and i and its on John. hahaha.. just cos john couldnt join us though... but yeah. ate until super super full. =) Super long time since i met up with Des and Seph to chat like that so it was quite "update-ful" LOL. kind of sry to Estella cos i didnt get to talk to you much! =) Catch u in church k!

"fartty fam

Was reading lishi's blog. haha. Sometimes we just let childishness get to us huh! haha like what she mentioned. i almost did the same too. ALMOST. =) you know i almost almost did the same thing as you did.. really.. almost..! over what...haha i'm still not planning to say over what.. but think after i say it out it sounds dumber (okok unless u all ask me when we go out =X) . ah ma.. dont know if u actually read mine blog b4 u wrote yours.. but it echoes...

"Friendships are things that can't be replaced, despite times where we get mad, irritated, frustrated or watsoever, friends still make up in the end.
becoz they have a place in ur heart, some small things may hurt even more compared to big issues from ppl who you dun care abt. "

haha. I Love you and miss you people... but its through all these that make me realise we can still grow closer despite being far. =)

Come on Come on.. keep it going =)

=) *feeling childish*

Mmm.. i used two words to describe last night "childishly moody". I'm glad i realised it was childish anyway. No doubt its something that bugged me last night. Anyway,Thankful that today i managed to fight Satan's powerful tool.... the rain!! *cheers*. Woke up almost telling myself to skip 10 service and only reaching at 12 for sunbeam. Its really the battle in the mind, no prizes for guessing who was victorious because its obvious! =D I am so glad i woke up and went for service. Emmanuel, God with us was the topic for sermon. Pastor touched a little teeny weeny bit on friendship which made me feel even more childish. Somehow i seem to be more aware about my thoughts that just so easily make me sin. "why should i still pray for them? why should i still make the first step to go out together?' Its just like as if satan was trying to distance me from them.

I'm glad i dismissed it as childish thoughts. Sometime i wonder satan really knows how to make use of things that he knows matter to us to cause us to sin. I refuse to let him take the victory.

Ironically as much as sometimes i feel sunbeam is just an obligation, its always the place that speaks to me (despite me being the sunday sch teacher). Today's teaching on fighting satan using God's word. Q: what will you do if you quarrel with your friends in school? Ans: Matthew 19:19 honor your father and mother, and love your neighbor as yourself.... Was also very comforted that for once when i said "okay i shall close in prayer" this p2 girl said..can i close? and i was really very encouraged by the innocent child like prayer. So, i'm glad that after this Sunday i realise that i'm still going to treasure my friends despite all the doubts that had arised in my minds =) its just something small i saw that i let my childishness take over.. SO! i'm still going to pray for u all and i'm still going to take the step to make sure we wouldnt just have a superficial fellowship but one that is deeper...

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. Eph 6:10

** P.s. Despite all, blog hopping is still encouraging =) i saw su xian's blog and it brought a smile back to my face. She has clearly painted my feelings towards choir.. and i really know that we're on the same frequency. haha.. after all the 12 years of frienship nothing rights =P

Trust in Him

Today's CG topic was about trusting in Him. This made me really kind of ponder. After hearing Joel's short sharing of his testimony during the short bus journey. It kind of made me ponder furthur. I had always wondered how i would feel one day if i realised God's ultimate plan for my parents was not what i wanted. How would i feel? What would i do? Would i blame God? It takes alot of courage and TRUST in Him to at the end of the whole thing and still say "Blessed is the name of the Lord". It is why i felt comforted from his sharing...

The hardest thing for me is always to try to accept God's plan as the best plan. The last evangelical event i tried to invite my family, i remember how disappointed i was in God when last min matters crop up and they couldnt attend. Its definitely the first reaction i remember having but also a reaction that really showed me how little faith and trust i had in Him. Trusting that theres a season and a purpose for everything that happens.

Similarly God shows me again this christmas that once again i'm still not placing my trust fully on Him. It was irritating that the first thought i had in my mind after realising that 6th council chalet clashed with my cg christmas outreach was "why like that, God?". Once again i reminded myself, GOD has better plans for them and maybe just not this christmas. Or somehow i'm just thinking i'm not trusting GOD enought to actually have the faith and courage to ask my friends knowing which answer they would choose given that the chalet was something they were looking forward to all yr. (or is not even trying to ask a sign of not trusting Him?) haha.. hmm i'm in a little funny dilema.

Trust God to chase away this sinful disappointment and dilema =)

As christmas comes, i have my biggest mega christmas wish.... That the christmas service will be a blessing and the greatest gift to friends and family that attend. One of my gifts to my friends and family this christmas...is really to give you God's love. Because how God had blessed and loved me... is a feeling i want to share and spread.. and it cannot be describe... unless you open your heart and experience it yourself..=)

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Ecc 3:1

was kind of blog hopping... which i never knew could put ppl in a bad mood. i guess in life there are some things you just have to give and take... and somethings you just have to accept it the way it is. and i know the very ppl i'm feeling this way at will never ever come to know its them. disappointed? irritated? puzzled? angry? amused? mm.. i cant seem to find the right word to describe. Just say because they matter thats why it matters..

HoLs

Been enjoying my hols so far. After much thought, i kind of realised that this was probably the first long hols and break i had since after As.. amazing right?! but YES. Been able to really spend time with the people i want to catch up with. the list goes on but i'm clearing them day by day.

Yesterday i went for Chuan En's performance. Although initially i kind of really dread having to go for it because no one else is actually gg! At times like that i can only think of one person who would entertain me to go with me for such "musical" performance. Yes. and sadly my dearest farrttt daddy is stuck in camp and so NO one to accompany me. haha. This type of performance is definitely not for the uninterested so i couldnt really ask anyone along! ANYWAY i was really glad i went for the performance. From here on.. only SUxian will understand what i'm talking about..... Do you know who i met?!? Thomas Kuek! yes its no other than our pri school choir conductor!! haha.. and you know it was a combined pri school performance and the songs they sang were sO what we sang! Candle on the Water, The Wind... and remember the "Esurientes Implevit Bonis" the song with the "naaaaa" haha it just brought back so much childhood memories which makes up my pri sch days. It was super hard work to practise those songs that they are etched in my memories and i could still hum them now! makes me remember songs like "Rhythm of life, Danny Boy, Peace Joy Love, Disney Medley.." So many others! haha and i must say Mr Kuek's pattern seem all so familiar that i actually recognise by the pattern the concert was like. *su xian wished you were there* haha.. suddenly i realised that it had been 7 years ago and it was through choir that i carried on singing christian songs such as "what child is this, Esurientes Implevit Bonis" despite being from a non-christian school. i Thank GOD for such a choir conductor and i'm really amused that i met him after so long!! =) The very conductor who made me stay in choir and the very conductor that set the standard so high that the subsequent conductor even in BPGHS couldnt meet =p .. the very reason i quit choir too. haha...

I miss choir... i miss allowing voices to join together to form one.

Choir makes me think of Ming Xuan..of how he teases su xian and i that we'll lose syf because when we stand opp each other we keep laughing while singing at the new conductor's action and somehow when i met up with Samantha and Ser Xing we were talking about him too.. Its just so funny how we suddenly miss the person only when they're no longer ard.... I just thank God....i know... He's safe in your hands. *nostalgic*

Birthdays

Happy birthday Zichun!!

Had a great time out with my sec school friends. haha! it was to celebrate Zi Chun's birthday. Yup. Jun Hao drove all the way until Changi Village to eat dinner... drove all the way back to sunshine place to have "supper" before we headed home. I swear its been so long that we hung out like that.. esp to Jia Min who i have not met for about a year! YES SO LONG! A YEAR!! i really miss you!! =) also glad i got to spend time with Su Xian!! =D okay.. lets do our christmas shopping together okay? Anyway to find the pics you have to go to this place - - - > www.celestong.multiply.com =D

Happy birthday Samantha.. (belated)

I CANT BELIEVE I MISSED AND FORGOT ABOUT IT! until i was looking a eugene's blog post on the 27th of NOV thinking.. *hmm* this date seem so familiar and important and recent...!! I CANT BELIEVE IT COS I NEVER FORGET IT!! so sorry... will make it up later this week girl... i was going to have camp during that period!! so you'll forgive me for forgetting rights???!? =X

Christmas mood

1st DEC! marks the start of my hols. just came back from band camp and pioneer movie marathon. I believe this really kinda marks the end of my bz year at zhenghua and signifies a good one month break. =) i am in a really christmas mood already. esp how the church starts on the one month of christmas sermons. haha... i love christmas.. because it is the day the Lord had made specially out of love and grace for us. =) I LOVE CHRISTMAS! =)

anyway people.. i can finally start catching up again.. haha met su xian at movie marathon .. i SO miss her sO much...=X loads more ppl for me to catch up too! lets make my dec a fruitful one. not forgetting spending time with my family too..= )

BP-ian

I was being rather enthu to blog after attending Friday's fund raising dinner. It was a day filled with interesting get-together session with a table of councillors from different batch (like 5 years older and even current bp councillor). It was really amazing to see different alumni contributing so much money $$... like the auction painting which could raise $9999 or the class of 1971 which contributed $50 000. Just kind of feel like the strong sense of BP spirit. Anyway.. as i always wonder why.. the event was hosted by li teng in mostly chi. =X I guess the event ended with our sch song and haha the attempt from our table to do BP cheer =X anyway...Esther if you're looking for the pic.. i'll post it up... soon!

It suddenly made me have a strong aim.... to want to contribute back to my school.. to aim to do well... to be able to teach in sec school... to teach in BP. Its seems like such a far ambition for now though..... !

Havent blogged cos got caught up with wk. Its times when stuff happen when i just wonder why do i have to tackle with the working world now. Its just so foreign and hard. I guess i throughly understand the meaning of "cover backside". To totally make sure every step, every track you make is tracked and safe. People say its hard being a beginning teacher because everything seems new.. i want to conclude.. its hard to be an untrainEd beginning teacher. Dont want to focus on the matter that happened but its a really good lesson learnt and i just have to learn from experience. Its irritating and just makes you suddenly fear that the next step you make may be a mistake again... haha got to quote gene since he just said this and i felt applicable

"cant let adversities beat me down, gotta pick up myself after some time"

i've learnt, move on, next time... cover myself...!

Divine appointment

What can i say about i day FULL of meeting. YUP! from 8.30 - 6.30 followed by dinner. I SURVIVED!! with loads of sweets in my stomach. 10.30 breakfast 12.30 lunch 3.30 tea 6.30 dinner.. i'm going to put on AGAIN!! Just when i was really freaking bored and "listening hard" to the meeting... an sms came in from kel about PDA.. personal revival, divine appointment, active obedience. Somehow i scan through the sms but didnt think too much, i mean.. what can happen when you're having meeting right?!? anyway of course my focus on the meetin was floating and i suddenly thought about teachers' fellowship and how they talked about praying for GODLY leaders. =) *staring at my principal who is talking*... i wondered if it was possible. haha.. did hear that he knew about christianity but not a christian though. Suddenly, he ended the meeting b4 tea with this poem... "serenity poem!" haha and during the meeting he mentioned the word "God" not those kind of "oh my GOD" but its those kind of .. "ask God to... .. " haha.. somehow this sort of ring a bell in me esp since i happen to receive the PDA sms =p haha.. i guess obviously i didnt have the courage to walk up to my P and just talk bout christianity like that!!!

Somehow, during dinner... we were sitting on the P's table!! just when i was thinking the day was bout to end. Suddenly my colleague asked me.. "Is religion that important" haha.. i almost fall of my bench while eating when she just suddenly asked me that Question..its like kel's PDA sms was ringing in my head =P haha in a shock i was like "Yes! YES!" and another of my colleague went "you must be a christian or catholic" hahaaha =X anyway realised that both of them in front of me had back slid!! we had a pretty good chat about christianity =) well.. from the corner of my eye.. i saw the principal kept turning over to our side to hear our convo.. kind of like i knew he was listening but since there was a gap in between us i didnt invite him to join in! Lack of courage.. hmmm didnt act in active obedience though i kept getting the prompt to just rope him into the convo...

Going to encourage my colleagues =)

Hmm.. and try to act in active obedience nxt time...=)

updates

Weekends are always full of updates. Firstly, i thank GOD that last Friday is over. I was SO busy and SO tired before that... the annual prize presentation ended with a bang and so did my duties.. =p Just take a look at my dearest band

http://celestong.multiply.com/video/item/6/Band_Performance

Anyway despite my busyness i was glad that i managed to just squeeze time out to have dinner with gene.. though it was suPposed to be with my dearest buddY too who apparantly *cough* last min said he was TOO lazy to come out of the house after i SPECIALLY cancel tution to make time.. *guilty already??!?* hahaa.. oh wells... yup. Just a good chat with Gene anyway =D

Really needed the time off and relax on saturday.. =D had a tremendous great time out with my lunch buddies yah? =D Since i've been pretty busy and stressed over the past week.. watching game plan together then going to play crappy games with our crappy jokes at minds cafe was just really great! (yes yes i can hear u all bugging me to update lunch buddy blog..)

Sunday...

A day that GOD kept reminding me that He was in control. Was pretty worried about what to share during Rays prayer meeting. but i THank GOD for the opportunity. You may think sharing is scary and resist doing so, but i thank GOD because to have the opportunity to share is a blessing because GOD chose to use me to be a blessing to others so i should not fear. =)

Teachers fellowship at church was something new. I was kind of hesitating about gg.. the session turned out really fruitful and beneficial to my walk. I was really glad to have my colleague Ser Lian to pray for me at the fellowship... I used to think there is this certain barriers between senior teachers and beginning teachers.. i guess she reminded me that GOD breaks all such boundaries and we are all GOD's child =D

food for thought "Teaching is a calling... esp Christian teachers"

Nothing also beats just going out for dinner with my family to celebrate my grandma's birthday =D Thank GOD for family!!!

Week ahead is going to be meeting week.. i bought alot of sweets to last me through =pP Pray it'll be a fruitful session...

just this sudden burden GOD seem to be putting in my heart. Its funny how the reminder comes on the same day. Once again reminding me to look deep inside and question about whether i have really forgiven.. I am able to say so, but i guess GOD questions the heart.. *thinks*... just something i'm always chucking away thinking its not super important issue anyway

Arched Across The Sky

Rainbows created my imagination As it arched across the sky On one end there sat you At the other end, there sat I Imagining I could slide across Over the rainbow to the end There would be my pot of gold The sweet love of my dear friend The rainbow is a connection Like a bridge from me to you It appears joined by sunlight Then the grey skies turn to blue Arriving after the rainstorms It became so evident to me Thoughts of love follow rainbows They arched right across the sea A colourful arching rainbow It has no gate, it has no door It reaches from friend to friend It arches from shore to shore I smiled up today at the sky How far would my loving smile go It slid right over to the other side The other end of the coloured rainbow

I toggled between my work review window, my blog and my e-mail. I chose to read an e-mail that really touched and pricked my heart. I knew i'm not an e-mail person..neither am i an MSN person, like you said i was more of a physically present person. Just made me wished that you werent so far. I didnt know my procrastination caused that, but when i felt the unwillingness to talk i thought it was because you were too bz for me to be impt. i realised you thought the same. I'll make the exception for you. I will.. but help me along too! I'm sorry! My dearest yt.. Just this poem for you.. literally Arched across the sky... arched from shores to shores..you are being missed!

To my dear junior who tagged me ;)

1. Time of starting This? 11/11/07 11.03pm

2. Were you named after anyone? Named after heaven? since my name means heavenly

3. Do you wish on stars? Nope.

4. When did you last cry? I hardly do... so cant remember!

5. What is your favourite meat? crab? =p

6. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? 5566 CD =X

7. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? absolutely. ;)

8. Are you a daredevil? nopes

9. How do you release anger? eat a lollipop? mutter a prayer?

10.Where is your second home? church..

11. Do you trust others easily? pretty much so. (easy to bluff =p)

12. What was your favourite toy as a child? story books (explaining my specs since k1)

13. What subject in school do you think is totally useless? SS (propaganda)

14. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Nope.. seldom!

15. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? huh? whats that...

16. What do you look for in a guy/girl? As i heard today's sermon said...God's choice and not follow your own heart ;)

17. Would you bungee jump? YEAH!

18. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Nope.

19. What's your favourite ice cream flavour? CHOCOLATE !!!!

20. what are your favourite colours? blue.yellow.orange.

21. What is your least favourite thing? crying or seeing ppl doing so.

22. What/Who do you miss most right now? my bed

23. What are you listening to right now? silence - by nature =pP

24. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Blue.

25. What is the weather like right now? windy and cloudy

26. Last person you talked to on the phone? Soon Leng!

27. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? the short hair?

28. How are you today? crampy - PMSy

29. Favourite drink? teh si

30. Favourite alcoholic drink? wine

31. Natural hair colour? Black,

32. Eye colour? Black.

33. Wear contacts? yeaH

34. Siblings? 1 older sister

35. Favourite month? December (hols!!)

36. Favourite food? mum's cooking

37. Last movie you watched? Anna & Anna.. *cough* its reALLY nice

38. Favourite day of the year? Christmas. =)

39. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? hmm i just asked my friend out just now..is it shy to ask ur friends out? *puzzled* =p

40. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy.

41. Summer or winter? winter

42. Hugs or kisses? no pref! haha

43. What book / magazine are you reading? The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult

44. What's on your mouse pad? i dont have one!

45. What did you watch on TV last night? some crappy channel 8 show my tv guide intro

46. Favourite Smell? food!

47. Do you regret ever breaking up with someone? nope. God is in control =)

48. Time of finishing? 11/11/07 11:16

I tag:
(to save ppl i shall not tag ppl =p)

dear junior.. see i completed the tag.. haha study hard and NOT tag anymore okay!! =p All the best and yupyup see u after exams!

A Day of my busyness

This is why i am busy... an example of this Friday...

7 - 7.25 Band buzzing session (Open rm ON TIME and gather)

7.25 rushes to 6C/Z (foundation class) and gather them in AVA to watch movie... play for 15 mins the room needs to be cleared.. so settle them in class.. (they stare at me i stare at them)

8.00 plays movie again... in classroom..

8.20 teacher comes to say the class need to be in the com lab..(move the to com lab for sexuality survey =.=)

8.30 rushes downstair to open bandroom for musical rehearsal...(send them to change and settle down -- which takes lots of energy)

9.10 sends boys to make up....9.20 sends girls to make up....

9.25 run up to 6C/6Z (3rd floor) to bring them to canteen (1st floor)... then rushed back to band and gather them to warm up...sneaked back to staff room thinking i can take a short break to eat my breakfast. *sits down* starts to bite.. but!

A teacher: celest.. the chess sets... i kept 4 boys outside for you to scold *apparantly havent been bring chess set after lots of reminder.... so, i went out and *scold scold scold* thinking to myself "oh ya still need to collect chess sets from 3J and do feedback for wits"

went back to continue to eat.. *start sitting down*... BUT!

*phone rings*

teacher: Celest, the props for musical with you? where are you? I'm in the hall doing up the props. can come to the hall?

9.50 reaches the hall and start laying one tablecloth for props. finished only one before i remembered my p6 class.

9.55 rushed down to canteen to bring 6C/Z up.. then rushed back to band room to check on kids... only to realise a boy REFUSING to perform and totally crying just because he got scolded for ruining his make up by running!! *sends band up to hall* stayed with props com to see if any props are missing or needed

10.15 band teachers discussion about band meeting parents later.. meanwhile keeping an eye on band.

10.25 picks 6C/6Z to hall and park them there while i take care of band.

11.15 bring band back to bandroom... debrief and cool down...

11.55 gather back to hall for Deeparaya concert.... *attends concert sleepily and taking a breather*

12.55 dismiss p6 class... FINALLY theres time for me to go and eat my lunch Peacefully...before i spent the rest of the time in the lab working on my work plan and band stuff.

3.40 Opens band room for band.. gathers.... 4-6 band practise

6.15 dismiss students yet gather parents at classroom for meet the band parents session.

6.15 - 8 Band chat time with parents...

8 ... after spending 13 hours in school was really enough. took a bus to town to meet my parents for dinner....

Seriously nothing beats having a slow stroll and a relaxing dinner with my parents to just rest and chill.. i was so totally shack that i didnt even talk much... but!

to end of the day.. i didnt sleep early.. i spent my the late night till 3 am doing my overdued work review to hand in by supposed overdued Friday itself. SO, i am so sorry to my CG mates because i was so sleepy and tired during CG and to lunch buddies and ur friends.. sorry for being kind of "sian" =) this is just one of the long days i've been having this wk...but this being the worst. So sorry to the ppl who alot of them i didnt reply smses to..*because i havent been replying much ppl this 2 wks to start with*

All in all... people always say.. busy is just an excuse. i guess i really need better time management and to remember to put my focus on the most important thing in my life that is to not compromise my time with GOD. =)

*tireds* GOD, pray for strength pls...

Monday 1pm - 7pm

quick post

I am SO busy. i cant express how BUSY i am. to the extent that i cant blog about FAD yet. =) GOD grant me the strength and energy to go through my week. Just 2 more weeks to holidays... *tired* Be back.. when i can.. because FAD was really great and i want to find time to talk about it (if i dont forget about it by then)..

Happy birthday Felicia... =)

Happy Birthday lame girl -- connie =)

Reflections

I really had to write these reflections down =) and act immediately (as i just reinforced in BS just now) YUP! i literally just step in from bible study with the girls and did a reflection on the bus home. Filled with exciting thoughts. =D

Firstly let me just "clarify" i'm not troubled but just been pondering on random issues. In fact, as i said, i've been really at peace these weeks. Not much internal struggle but just peace.

After the session with the girls, been really inspired. Started to explore the word "fear". The start of the week was a lesson learnt. After seeking my mentor's advice after an issue, i realised you can be a passive teacher or an active teacher. I had been a rather passive teacher. The "fear" of making the wrong comment, doing the wrong thing, pissing the wrong person of makes one want to be in the comfort zone. I come to realised that i've been in my comfort zone because of fear. Linking this to the video we watched during CG the week before when SP was talking about stepping out of the comfort zone. I realised that by approaching my senior teachers, mentors, HODs with love and sincerity and the passion to grow and learn, it was a platform to really be the active person.

This also reminds me of the coming Friendship Appreciation Day BBQ. Many of us may feel the "fear" therefore not being willing to move out of our comfort zone. Just pray that we remember and move out of our comfort zone by approaching each other's friends with love and sincerity and the passion to share His love. To be the active testimony for Christ. I'm looking forward to doing so. =)

I'm growing Lord. THANK you.

Looking forward to FAD....

GOD is faithful.

Here goes my weekend. Better blog b4 i start my week and neglect it again. haha.. GOD is faithful. I've been feeling pretty much at peace these week. No strugglings internally.. no lack of motivation.. THANK GOD. dedicated to GOD and to yah ting.. i manage to do it! i manage to wake and motivate myself up.. go for 10 service myself.. serve in sunbeam myself. its starting to be a routine that i can handle. Yah Ting! yup i finally did it. I know i'm not a good e-mail person.. i procrastinate replying.. or even sending out. I pledge to send you one every Sunday.. to update u on church and sermons. I pray that GOD would guide and lead me =)

Really looking forward to my CG friendship appreciation day.. invited my friends who mean dear to me. i pray that they will have a great fellowship time and be blessed. =)

God i come to realise i have one barrier that i know its going to be hard for me to step out of. I guess sometimes i guard my heart too much...Its this line that i cant seem to cross.. GOD refine me =)

Lord i offer my life to you. everything i've been through.. use it for your glory...

anyway, i've made the commitment to sign for IDT.

=) happy birthday Lishi

Celest is super irritated with someone at the moment but shall rant that later.

Just came back from Lishi's house =) yup. it was a surprise birthday party for her =) I havent laughed so much in one night. It was just a really crappy funny time just like the old times. Hanging around chit chatting... taking our crappy photos and coming up with crappy ideas. I am glad she had a good time! Shall put up the photos soon.

to the buddy that u have just irritated me...

i can only say you are super unlucky to let me see you when i was on the bus on the way home. I THINK you are really sUAY. of ALL timing i always see you. Next time just say you want to dota and not just give some crappy excuse can!!!! gaahh... DES...!!! can you help me to like whack him!!! stupid buddy..

lishi,karmun,laiyan,dasen.guang and fart dad... now you ALL know where john went instead of gg k! anyway.. its not about gg to play dota.. its just about saying it out =.=

okies anyway not gg to get irritated..

thanks for the good time at lishi's place today. really enjoyed myself. =D

Friday

By fartty dad's pop demand of complaining my blog has NTH. i shall talk about my friday =) The week was just filled with marking of compo scripts. COMMON marking is the most INTERESTING experience and its TOUGH!! anyway, took MC on a day to have a good rest too before my Friday came. Friday came! I brought the P6H kids to West Coast Park. Although it seemed like it was going to rain but it didnt! my P6s social studies class was there too. haha... had great "fun" being forced by the P6s girls to go and climb this pyramid there and also play this mini flying fox thing. haha. i think someone was trying to get back at me when i took that toilet picture of her huh! haha.. anyways... they were rowdy but i thank GOD that i didnt have to shout as much as i expected. It was also a really sunny day in the end. Oh wells. thats not the only time i work out. I also spent the time after that back at school playing bball with my p6 boys.. hahah erm.. i can only say i really miss playing bball.. I feel like playing bball!! so i really couldnt resist playing with them =X ... nAhhhh its no longer empty already...

and if you're wondering whats on 3rd nov!!

Just pray you dont get confined okay!!!

=) come and Check iT OUT =p

who's interested to comee along tell me too~! its a fun interesting exciting day =)

Another week ....

Unknowingly realised i didnt blog for a week! Especially since i had a really slack and easy week. It was PSLE marking week and goodness, only 4 teachers went back to school while the rest were posted out. so, seriously, the whole school and staffroom was so empty! Of the four days... i spent all of the mostly with 3 P6 kids who are doing this editing clip for the DV school video. One of them in which was FEL's sister (as i complained.. FELICIA I SPEND more TIME with your SISTER than i did With YA).

So fast another week passed. Its my favourite Sunday again. God laid upon my heart this burden but it was GOD who reminded me that He is indeed in sovereign control of it. As much as i pray that God would rekindle that burning desire in my sister so that we could be great testimony for my parents, i was reminded by Him to wait for things to happen and His time and He would indeed do so. Sunday morning was before church was too eventful. I struggled with this slight disappointment in GOD realising that my prayers the day before night had been dashed once again but immediately recognised that He was in control and indeed He blessed the situation and turned it. Thank GOD that today sermon i hopefully pray it spoke to her heart. I felt it was pretty relevant to what had just happened and i pray that GOD is working. I am reminded to wait upon Him and He will make things happen in His time. Thank God for this opportunity.

God refine our hearts...

Towards moving over to woodlands...

It was quite expected..

but i'm actually quite excited =D

.....*prayerfully considering IDT* .....

Complete

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

I kind of enjoyed sermon today. It just reminded me of two things that area laid upon my heart. My QT which i keep procrastinating and not take action. Once again i was reminded. once again i was moved.. once again i know that serious action should be taken. "In Your strength will I break through, Lord" Thank GOD that i made the motivation to wake up to go for church 10 service. Thank GOD that i felt that need for pushing myself to be independent. After setting 5 consecutive alarms, i woke up and motivated myself to go to church myself. Just felt this peace that GOD was laying upon my heart that i was not alone. "And by faith, I will walk on, Lord" Lord is with me =) I am strengthen in you LORD. Only you make me feel complete. =)

Went for dim sum to celebrate my parents anniversary. GOD bless them. Just love spending such quality time with them. I went shopping after that =D whee.. bought alot of things.. and very happy.. hahaha... =X

Been a very rocky week spiritually. Dont really know why i dont really feel like "interacting" with ppl recently.. haha though ironically met up with alot of ppl to interact. Physically there spiritually away =X

Met up with di on saturday.. finally! after all the flying and busy us. Once again you're flying! Busy busy. just want to say.. sometimes when i crap, i just want you to take ur mind of thinking thats why i crap. Kind of really want to see u pick up soon.. to be that super irritating di of mine that can so totally spite and irritate me so much that i feel like whacking you. haha thats the di that i know =p press on please.. GOD is with you. rest in Him.

got to meet up with the GREen monster too =p okay.. fartty dad.. who so misses guava and sour plums after the trip back from brunei. =) i havent met u in SOOOO long!!! so it was great to meet up and chit-chat though it was a short time... heh heh..i give u a medal for being able to stand my "rubbish" =)

Term 4 Wk.....?

Band is quite "fun". Its interesting to "bully" the kids. okay i mean just seeing them practise. haha.. It was quite interesting to see the drummer! He could play quite well! I was pretty amazed and he made me tempted to learn drums. =)

I met up with quite a few people this week,, quite randomly a pri-sch mate who i had recently met through my jc friends.. haha.. quite highly random but quite blessed to know. Thank GOD for the chit-chat session and for a companion to finish my FTT with me! Also met up with Sam and Serxing. They made a conclusion.. BP girls cant get attached =p please consult them with their deductions. hahahahaha... great time of chit-chat session too!

Lastly. WHERE IS MY FARTTY DADDY!!! ARENT YOU BACK FROM BRUNEI ALREADY!!!! quick .. the big green hulk is needeD! theres too much crap building up =X lack of avenue to release.. hahahaa.. =)

*sigh* dont know why i am feeling so lethargic and lazy... =X

the week

Thank GOD for Anna's birthday. I went to attend her church bible study group. They were talking about giving too! =) Thank GOD for that... just as i THANK GOD for her. To this colleague of mine who been through all the rantings and praising GOD for all the blessings we have each day. For enjoying our cam whore and crapping in the staff room and for marking and teaching hard each day. Thank GOD for this sis-in-christ who supports me with our post it notes on our tables each day =)

Thank GOD for Ruth =) Blessed birthday girl.. As a "surprise" birthday session, we went to MOS with my cell group. YES you heard me. i went there with my cell and that is definitely the best group of ppl to go MOS with. =D because you will feel totally protected by GOD's people. Clubbing with them was pretty fun though its not really totally my type of activity. =D but its definitely fun to just chill out with them...Haha.. but.. mm the retro room we settled in was really retro =p THANK GOD for the day =)

Thank GOD for the P6s. It was PSLE week. the teachers are all feeling stressed! they seem more stressed than their kids though!! maths paper was hard... felt kinda "worried" for my students. Just pray for good moderation. Thank GOD for allowing me to see that i could make a difference... for this P6 student who we made a pact. He managed to quit smoking and drinking! Thank GOD for the opportunity to show him the videos i saw at church last week. It was heart warming to know he knew who was christ though he was distant and is distant and prob hard for him to take the step closer to know my GOD is different from his.

p.s THE HULK was showing on tv on sunday!! but the GREEN monster is in Brunei!! quickly come back!! =p

Happy Children's Day

Thank GOD for the wonderful children's day =D I managed to catch up with the girls who esp Laiyan ah yi i've not met for sO long. Had a "tea" at fish & co before we decided to do something really "dumb" and "retro" by taking neoprints since we did not do so for a long time! =.= yeah. After that before we got so fascinated by cough cough some thingS at newurbanmale huh =X hahaha.. Anyway, i was really glad that four of us managed to catch up and chit chat =)

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL

We are all children! Child of GOD... =)

"That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaaven, for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust" Matt 5:45

Praise the Lord our Father =D and rejoice because we are his child.

P.s. To soon leng who is going to brunei for two weeks.. quickly come back!! if not who's going to listen to my craps?? i will pray for ya! heh ... take care fartty =p CHILDREN DAY PRESENT PLEASE!!! =)

.........

my emo post is reduce to dots... - - - > .........

It has been more of a tiring day than emo day or maybe a mixed emo day due to my tiredness.. I had SUCH A TIRED DAY. Had joy giving my present to my kids. I gave a lollipop, a marble and a pen... yes... i said.. sweets to perk your day, marble to reflect your true self.. =X you know.. marble=can reflect.. I had such a busy week with so little time to prepare for yt's presents.. felt really bad about it though. To all those people who tried to sms/talk/"date" me out this week... sorry for just ignoring.. SO TIRED but LOOKING forward to MONDAY holiday =)) Yes.. yah ting left... the reality takes time to set in... was pretty gloomy today its the mixture of shack and emo.. mm.. i know i'm not the kind that will cry.. but the kind that will stone and stare blank and not feel like talking to anyone.. so SORRY To the ppl i ignored as much as i tried to talk esp the cg girls who i suddenly said i feel like gg home instead of supper.. yt..i'm feeling spiritually weak already..!!! HOW!! the devil is at work. THANK GOD for lollipops as i randomly felt so much better after one on the way hm =.= its a mind thing or maybe the contents in it? haha... THANK GOD that for fartty soon leng dad too who CALLED me and WOKE me up when i was SLEEPING on the bus.. =p okay.. thanks because you managed to literally survived listening ALL my crap on the way walking home.. i assure you that its crap because it =)is words of a tired sleepy emo pms person. haha.. and i'm told to blog this.. a random poem i made on the phone. =.= " the moon is so round toDAY, the werewolves come out to plAY, ..... slAY, ......dAY, ....clAY" yes my attempt to be a poet. the moon was really round and nice =D okay u managed to cheer me up by listening to my MANDRIAN "joke" and craps.

Yah Ting.. i am already missing you....

My friend, to you I bid goodbye

My friend, to you I bid goodbye
To the friendship that brought me sky
The year has been swell
As if coming from a wishing well
But as all things do
I have to bid adieu
How it pains me to
But there's nothing I can do
Thank you for the memories
The laughter and the tears
They'll linger in my heart
As if we never part
When we meet again
May it be full of blessings in the rain
Yet for now all that I can say
Is to God for you I'll pray

Thank GOD for Yah Ting.. this few months we met had just been God's blessing to me. I read the letter you wrote to me.. makes me feel even more emo this wk... Though part of me wished you would be there to do all the things together with me, but i know GOD has greater plans in stall for us. I cant help but to feel more spiritually vulnerable to see you leave...

Just really hate getting reliant.. because its hard to let go... GOD points straight to my heart and says.. empty those burdens and reliance on man. Let GOD carry them..

Leave with a happy heart this Friday... Let GOD take control of the uncertainties ahead and those you left behind.. Trust in Him and pray..

i didnt know i would feel this way... but as the day starts to come nearer, i start to get kinda emo.. just want to tell you.. You will be missed....

Praise the Lord

I was talking to one of my P6 student on MSN... felt really encouraged at what i heard. Thank God i really feel what plans you have for me. GOD i am encouraged.. i just really want to share....

-Harvin--God we're all in this together! says:

but its not realli abt the church mah...its heart

Harvin--God we're all in this together! says:

i inviting my friends to church, but all de siao me, i know i veri bad and stuff,but i growing de, but heck them arh, if they know about our awesome god i happy liao

-Harvin--God we're all in this together! says:

my brother, he christian for a few years, than i see he veri good, i say how come he liddat, he say jesus, than i like huh huh,than he show me 1 movie,passion of the christ,i cry sia,than i ask him bring me church,than i cry again than i realise about god about what his done for us, i got touched and convert. (parental objections- i kena beating until blood ,he oso beaten till blood but more worst, his nose bleed, his skin 2, than after the beating, we laugh about it, coz the truth was, IT DIDN'T HURT AT ALL,praise god, it hurt a little onli, its amazing what little faith can do to you, where did u think i got the C scar on my face.

--Harvin--God we're all in this together! says:

just wanna say agains its great to have a christian teacher!!!

Shared this convo because i felt it would really speak to many of us. I am glad God let me see such faith and courage (which is often lost along the way in our spiritual journey)..... This child like faith that we lost along the way should be re-kindled. Just how my student converted, spread the gospel despite setbacks, face objections yet press on with faith really spoke to me to reflect about how we should press on in faith =) THANK GOD. I am encouraged. There is no doubt i found my calling in teaching.. such child makes it worth..

Harvin... i shared your convo because i felt it was touching.. haha.. on the teacher note.. please brush up your english!! and study hard =p GOD will provide and bless...

Happy birthdayS

Happy Birthday Yeu Ai, Chang Zhi, Guang Yi and Sister =D

Been a rush two days which ended with a great CG Mooncake celebration aka yah ting's leaving aka Chang Zhi's birthday surprise at west coast park. =D Had a great time planning and had a great time there too. Praise the Lord.. that this brother of mine was pleasantly surprised by our well hidden plan...=) The only down side its i kept sneezing.. like feeling a bit "pathetic" now since i seem to look like i'm crying while teaching cos i have a literally RUNNING nose.. Feeling guilty that through the busy day i spend doing other things,i did not have time to grab my sister's present for her birthday...!!!! :'( but.. i told her GOOD things need to wait.. hahaha...

Yeu Ai : MIA MIA MIA!! =X happy bday.. though we stay in the same condo we almost nevER get to meet. MIA!

Chang Zhi: The CG loves you!! now the standard set until so high.. kindly please plan the next one! hahaha =p THANK GOD you had fun.. =)

Guang Yi: erm.. guilty guilty.. i forgot to wish you since i was so tired after getting back so late and trying to rush to celebrate my sis b'day. CANT BELIEVE I FORGOT!!! At least we celebrated earlier ;) WEAR THE RED *ahem* we gave!! will ask shao wei to spot check =X

Yah ting..... =( time flies.. 1 more week only .. you'll always be God's greatest blessings to me. Though i really can sense a wonderful plan He has for you and me ahead. *hugs*

random

I learnt something in school today..

P3 u grade class

me: what are you doing.. did you just fight with your friend?

malay boy: No i never....

malay boy's friend..: Fasting month cannot lie! God will scold you..

malay boy: ermm..ya i was but he whack me first!

p6 ugrade class maths

me: did you do this on your own or did you copy my answers when i went through..

Malay boy: no.. i did it myself.. really... Fasting month cannot lie.

me: THen tell me why ALL The answers is exactly the same step as what i did. *glares*

malay boy: really.. never copy...

me: you said fasting month cannot lie... so DID YOU COPY?

malay boy: erm... ya...just a bit..

conclusion: fasting month cannot lie =.= though i dont understand why they all say only FASTING month cannot lie... and they're really pretty scared of doing so!!

God, i pray for patience

How to relieve stress (originally me version)

1) Pray that GOD grant me patience and strength.

2) Take deep breaths in and out and glup my water

3) Eat chocolates (apparantly thats why i have a bunch under my table)

4) Suck lollipops (sadly i ran out of them at home and sch =.= only to find this yogurt flavour one which mmm... doesnt really help!!)

5) Crap with someone (and i mean talk everything else except my stress)

6) Smile because you make a difference =D

I am STRESSED these days... GOD teach me patience...Losing control of your emotions is the last thing a teacher should do =D

This is what the teacher said about my P3 u grade class

"its a challenge" ,"Unique" class, Its..different from normal.

there was no solution to my problem...

am i really going to survive the next few weeks of daily challenge!!

I take it, GOD please guide me...*patience* =D

End of Hols.

I feel like a student who's hols had came to an end.

The difference is... i'm the teacher. =X

I cant believe this week is gone so soon!

10 weeks ahead of lessons preparations.... and duty and motivation.

God guide and lead me on....

*i cant believe i'm doing things so last min this Sunday...*

Teachers record book

Edit fraction worksheet

plan next week lessons

Check out band about camp

Check out what to practice for children day.....

..................... GOD bless my 10 weeks please =D

*Thank GOD that he led di to church today....*

Holiday Week

No doubt about it, a fruitful and slack holiday week =D with of course many amazing meet up sessions =D

Mon: Cleared BT evaluation!! =)

Tuesday: Met up with Su Xian *cheers* / Met Alexius and Yah Ting and watched Hairspray. I felt that it was a rather OK movie but you should ask some reviews from Alexius. (hahahaah)

Wednesday: Met up with Eugene for lunch. Though he was late and i had to leave early to school so we barely got time to chat much!!! hahaha... Finally a day that i can justify my holiday pay because i actually went back to Zhenghua to give my dearest two P6 student extra remedial and to spend my THREE hours in band. Blessing of the day is that i had found a tuner to tune my guitar *yeah* =D

Thursday: Lazy Thursday today =D Slept all the way until AFTERnoon before i met up with Yixin for a late lunch. Almost forgot that i had tution today! luckily i remembered =D

Friday: LONG DAY!! Woke up to reach zh at 7 so as to reach expo by 8 for the teachers mass lecture. GOSH! really MASS lecture. There was about 10 teachers per pri/sec/jc =X i actually met Mr Chin (who had a =O reaction seeing me there) and Mr Tan Boon Kiong (equally shock) After mass lecture, i met up with Jonathan Lee for lunch, sneaked back home for a rest before meeting up with the CG girls for bible study =D

To all the ppl i met up....

Su Xian: One of the best person i met up this wk. I really miss you around. Glad we went on that food eating session not thinking about the diet part. haha.. we ate SO much!! Just love laughing and crapping like that. Like you said we had not been meeting up like just the two of us for SO long and i pledged at least maybe once a month since we have tuesdays free ? =D *hugs*

Alexius: I'm sure you didnt enjoy the movie because you were sleeping!!! haha...

Yah Ting: Times like this are so precious because you're leaving so soon. I'm already missing you... HOW! You should get me someone =X but you're still irreplaceable ;)

Eugene: Dont worry about being late =pP we can always catch up other times. I will pray that your medical clears as soon as possible and your career will be back on track okay? Even if it fails, dont take it too hard... =D

Yixin: Without meeting you that day, i would had skipped lunch out of laziness to walk out of my house =X God has laid a burden in my heart that i want to share with you.. after i listen to what He has to say to me =D

Jon Lee: SO guilty to make you wait for so long... haha some issues back at expo while trying to share a cab back with the rest of the teachers that took me so long =X SO SORRY!!! It was definitely great to catch up and chat about our lives (ahem Syahir where are you..) =D Like i said you must had left a deeper impression since of your batch i can only rmb you! Work hard for your O's =D I still like the fact that you have a goal you're working towards! lets' catch up again when time allows =D oh yea add this add instead - - - - > faithplushope@hotmail.com

(p.s... NiC!! i found out you gave me Jon's no. wrongly that day =p)

CG Girls: Haha...bible study at town is not a good idea!! Getting distracted by mooncakes and shoes =X Anyway, today's BS made me clearly realise that God wants me to do something.. something that i have to prepare and arm myself with knowledge and prayer before i embark on it... that i should learnt to stand up and "fight" it and not just "hide" it.. I will read up and pray and go out and fight =D Thanks girls. I'm quite "excited" about CG's upcoming outing!!!

i love my holidays =D

Thank GOD

Something my friend did for me =D touched... thanks!!!

Once again its been meet-my-friends week... been a great week =D will update in detail nxt time =D Thank God for friends

Happy Teachers Day

Teachers Day was a great inspiring day =) Had lots to share but currently feeling lazy.. Had quite a few presents from my students but ironically i love the present from the school the most. It was an inspiring book on "why teach" compiled by teachers in zh. =) I'll lend you to read if you want! =D Teachers Day dinner at Marina Mandrain was also an interesting one =D the teachers were totally different from usual that time! well.. interesting experience since in was my first time attending such!

Saturday: Finally got to meet my "fartty fam".. =D It was definitely a great time having to catch up with them. Although some were missing (basically it was only "ah yi" who was not present) haha.. but i realised that we were the celebrate "Valentine day" together grp =p Great to see "biao ge" who i havent caught up in months? haha.. Eating and chilling out together was definitely great. Press on!!!

Sunday: Spent my quality family time and definitely satisfied with it =D Its been long since my family went out together (since my sis was like overseas over the past mths ) Went to catch Rush Hour 3 together and later went to this korean restaurant to eat dinner (supposed to celebrate my mum's belated birthday) =D Its been a blessing to be able to spent some time with my family.

THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING =D

I love my hols!! =D

smile....

all pics are on my multiply www.celestong.multiply.com

Smile, because you make a difference everyday of your life.

=D

Thank God for the talk with Martin.(aka Mr Koh i cant really get use to calling principals by name)

Finally after joining the school for so long, the principal decided to chit chat to me for a get-to-know chit chat session and i'm really grateful for that. It was a session that set me thinking furthur and made me believe and assured my direction. Started of with just sharing about our backgrounds and stuff. He said several things that really inspired me and made me believe.

1) Leadership is about influence and the ability to lead a team (teamwork). That was what i answered when he questioned my concept of leadership. No doubt he affirmed that my council experiences had taught me well and i really thank BP council and 6th council PJ for that experience that i grown alot and put to good use now. He also taught me not to forget to set a vision. If the leader himself or herself does not have a vision of what he/her wants to achieve.. and whats the end pt to work towards to, how is the leader going to lead? After hearing, i decided not to rant about being the Band CCA teacher but really look to the challenge of leading the kids through this critical period of SYF next year. *inspired*

2) Teaching - i've so much more to learn.(while i live i learn) As he exclaims how young i was and that getting through the interview was a challenge. Once again affirmed. Made mention of the previous contract teacher who seemed like me =p He said he saw how she grew over the past year (adding the fact that there were tears behind those "growing") I had this growing anticipation for the challenge ahead. Guess i love challenges...and i am looking forward to growing!

3) WHY TEACH? - He asked me straight.. a question i asked myself too. my ans.. "As clique as it gets.. i want to make a difference" As i say it out, i felt certain. Its like all the doubts and worries and fears about my decision just disappeared. "smile, because you make a difference everyday of your life" was on the dedication video to teachers. Its something i believe in... and i see it happening in what i'm doing and through the stress i face, i love what i'm doing. Mr Koh said that many times when things get stress teachers tend to forget the actual reason why teach? and get carried away with anger and stress.... i just have to remind myself...=) was also assured of how i could always furthur my studies as how many teachers even when they come out to teach, still study for their degree! =D

4) The best teachers are dictators who act like they are not. Some teaching methods he shared with me that teaching doesnt have to be all about scolding or shouting. Because we shouldnt let ourselves lose control of our temper. But instead we have to set certain standards that they should know they need to achieve or they would have to face the consequence. As i was sharing about some problems faced in class, he taught me to believe in the children. If you believe they can do it, they will. But if even i dont believe they can do so, how would they? Believe that every child has their potential. =)

Thanksgiving to God for placing me in an environment so condusive and nice. No doubt its a blessing to have nice principals and V. Principals and a bunch of teachers who many are christians too!!!

I want to grow more as a teacher and be a good testimony =D

smile smile smile... you're making a difference doing so =)

I'm a teacher and I thank God for this calling =D

=)

Life's simple. Its when you look forward with anticipation and let every small thing be your motivation that you find that life is not that dreading. =) Havent been feeling like that in a while but i seem to find joy in little things today. It reminded me life is that simple and joyful.

walks home from tution smiling all the way ...

walk past a classroom and smiled seeing the children dancing ACES dance (super cute!!)

saw most 6N clear U-grade this prelims (SUPER HAPPY!!!)

scolded a noisy boy happily...

Life is that simple and happy. I find my motivation in.. nothing but everything.

move on. move on. jiayou. move forward. with smiles, simplicity and joy =)

ahyi i gave what u said some thought... =) Thanks.

Week update

A normal slightly boring week had passed.. but with GOD's work filled in my week. THANKS! God gave me the opportunity to share deeply with ser xing. She stayed over at my hse and we spent 5 plus talking all the way till 7 to 8 plus.. debating about christianity. I understand her doubts and her inability to be convinced. I'll keep you in prayers. Dont shut God away..

"Be bless and bless others".. someone once told me that. I awed at GOD's work when Howie shared about the divine appointment because deep inside i knew it was definitely GOD's work. At brief, Howie was tempted by something that was wrong.. he was close to giving into temptation..when so happen i sent him an sms "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it" 1 Corinthians 10:13 Praise the Lord.. this verse spoke to him deeply and once again VICTORY over temptation! I knew this was GOD's work. 1) I was half asleep when i decided to send the message to some CG ppl.. and though i almost seldom or nv sms Howie.. i dont know why i did so that day (vaguely rmb he said he had a tough wk)!! (sleepily) 2) WHO sends a quote on temptation!?! its so random.Usually encouragement quotes right? But God blessed and touched my heart when we had our girl's bible study the night b4 that i thought i could share the blessings on temptation .. 3) it was 1 odd am in the morning..!!!! and a school day.. why would i send it at such an odd time!! (it was a random urge) THANK GOD. He showed me that all things happen for a reason, all things happen in His perfect timing!!!

Lastly, its just to you ... you and only you! Xian.. i really cant believe our telpathy still works u know!! you know why? I went to your blog and read ... i wished i could be with you once again to settle together as we always did the past few times... anyway then i tagged "Xian.... i miss you ~ " After a while i happened to check my blog tag box and i saw your tag in mine was "Hey. i miss you".. you know it wasnt planned but we said the same thing!! =p Miss you girl. Hope you settle in fast...

I'm starting to get reliant Lord... i pray i wouldnt because being reliant is a troublesome thing.

HE Never Fails

He Never Fails

He never fails the soul that trusts in Him;
Tho' disappointments come and hope burns dim,
He never fails.

Tho' trials surge like stormy seas around,
Tho' testings fierce like ambushed foes abound,
Yet this my soul, with millions more has found,
He never fails; He never fails.

He never fails the soul that trusts in Him;
Tho' angry skies with thunder-clouds grow grim,
He never fails.

Tho' icy blasts life's fairest flow'rs lay low,
Tho' earthly springs of joy all cease to flow,
Yet still 'tis true, with millions more I know,
He never fails; He never fails.

He never fails the soul that trusts in Him;
Tho' sorrow's cup should overflow the brim,
He never fails.

Tho' oft the pilgrim way seems rough and long,
I yet shall stand amid yon white-robed throng,
And there I'll sing, with millions more, this song--
He never fails; He never fails.

Praise the LORD =D

Be encouraged for the week ahead ppl =)

Blessings and Thanksgiving

Another week had passed. As i reflect this week, i seem to realised what was the problem. It was the changes in my life that makes me unconfortable. Its how stagnant and dry i feel now that makes me agitated...

As i read sl's blog...

"Sometimes, i fear that i might lose my friends, cuz al of us are leading our own seperate lives. It is thru some opportunities and by chance that ppl get together and become friends. And when these chances cease to be dere, it is going to take a toll on the friendship. I fear, for myself and the others, that we'll be too busy and occupied with our new life that we neglect wad is originally ours. In simpler terms, tt's taking things for granted. I detest change and yet this is one of the off-putting music tt we've to face."

Lishi's blog

"i keep reminiscing abt the past, grabbing tightly to those memories, which makes me one want time to come to a standstill so that everything can remain the same as it is now."

I'm really starting to feel lonely and missing times with fartty family, missing their daily presence.. which became weekly presence after we graduated, which now became much less as we all start school or army in our own way. I kind of miss weekly outings alot.. getting so nostalgic about everything as everyone starts getting caught up with our own life. Yeah.. maybe i hate changes.... this is why i want to give my thanks to GOD.

He knows i am feeling the missing gap. I THANK GOD for blessing me with Anna. My colleague, my friend, my sister in christ, enthu, dedicated teacher =) He blessed me with such a christian sister to support me in my walk despite the changes. A blessing to have her to sit beside me, eat with me, take crap pics with me and talk about God during our free period! The past week was taxing the first 3 days but sustained by God's blessings. We went to watch the fireworks together with another of her two church friends.

Another thanksgiving.. Thank God for giving me an opportunity to reach out to the muslim p6 girl. Not wanting her to let her thought stray and do things she shouldnt do again, i made her stay in school after psle oral 1 to 1 and coached her maths! (sadistically did so as it was supposed to be half day). The unexpected opportunity came when she asked me "teacher what will you do when you see a ghost' .. i replied her "my God will help me". haha.. she got really curious and i managed to share so much that even the whole gospel came out and i questioned her and made her think furthur. heh with the power of calling Anna out to help me =P hahahaha.. THANK GOD for the outreach opportunity because the girl seemed interested to know more.. though it may be hard for her to change religion but may GOD work in her slowly.

lastly, THANK GOD.. to wake up for CG today was a struggle. Woke up with a lack of motivation and demoralised by the rain (as it seemed so nice to sleep). I actually snoozed for 1 hr, struggled with my thoughts for rather long before i WON my thoughts by forcing myself up. (actually i remembered what Anna said about how she felt that she shouldnt ask her sister to skip bible study for fireworks.. that sparked me up =p)

Thank GOD..

God, would you carry on sustaining me....i need the motivation..and strength..

Food for Thoughts

Stressed week which i expected a tough week. Not really because of the work load (though increasing) but more of the trying to control my emotions. I hearby vote the most getting on my nerves class is the P3 class..the most i-am-worried about class is my p6 class... the most teachable class.. my p4 class. Here's some food for thoughts i had after my Monday P6 sadistic remedial class. Sadistic because of how long we keep them until.At the corner of my eye i saw a teary looking girl which i kept her behind after class to ask why. She actually told me she came back from the hospital after eating 10 panadols and .. .. After some "heart-to-heart" talk about why she did that, it made me realised how our family played such an important role in our life. No doubt for the P6s the stress is coming as prelims come next week..but i was still rather shocked at the way she handled stress. Yeah admist my "tummy ache" i managed to cheer her up and as she did not want to go home due to various reasons i told her to stay back with me for the nxt few weeks and study. Food for thought 1# kids nowadays are highly stressed.

Anna was telling me about this girl from her church who committed sucide due to the inability to handle stress. Her sisters and her are all christians but their parents were not saved. After her death, her parents, a storn taoist (who without her death would not had converted) had converted. This sparked me to ask Anna "do you think the girl went to heaven?" Yup. Its not for us to judge whether or not she would go.. but Food for thought 2# When one commit sucide.. where is she going? There is no doubt God used her to reach out to her parents, so her death was God's plans...

All the morbid things aside... GOD i need stength and patience to calm my heart this week. Need especially more strength to fight satan's tools of using negative thoughts to agitate me. Surrender these to YOU that YOU may sustain me...

*ps.. sister coming back this sunday, something to cheer me up =D =D =D =D =D*

*Argh*

okay.. gg to be another bz week ahead which needs alot of self motivation to get through. Had a great time lazing ard with yah ting at my place. =) i guess only we know what we're gg through this lazy Sunday afternoon. arghh such an irritating feeling and i hate it. Once again i wonder, such a time who suffers.. guys or girls.. ! BOTH! after some analysis we realised its a lose-lose-situation for both. The girl know she's highly irritable and says ignore her (but actually bluffing) then the guy think should avoid then avoid then the girl being highly irritable will think the guy very. . . . . then the guy didnt know what he did wrong but the girl bu shuang. or if the guy carry on sticking around.. the girl being highly irritable rants at the guy and the guy gets scolded for nothing!! Haha.. lose-lose-situation! anyway, Arhh.. we need to think of a perfect solution to this irritating monthly crisis..its disgusting and irritating.. shoo with it...!! Sigh. still all the negative thoughts clutters at this period. GOD deliver me from negative thoughts and feelings which make bright life seem bleak! oh..yeah and anyway sorry to the bunch of guys who ate with us during lunch.. unluckily we didnt feel like talking so seem like we're so mean =X

yah ting.. the fact that you're leaving makes me sad =( no one with me for sunbeam or after church.. hah i kinda can imagine how much u'll be missed. =( cheer up anyway~~

Long Hols

OK. Long hols is sadly coming to an end. Apparantly once again i've not started my planning for my next week. SO feel like i'm doomed. This long hols i had been really spending time catching up alot. Met up with Edi,Hao, Wan Mei, SUXIAN!, Chun,Zhen Hong..eating session and pictionary session was really fun.. PLAYING PICTIONARY TILL 12.30 plus am...!!!! my goodness =.= ..Met up with MOM colleagues =D for steamboat at aunty jessie's house (which turns out to be a really major blessing *long story*).. Met up with eugene over dinner to chit chat and catch up, met up with john & gy to watch secret, met up with cg to have cg (finally!!) well anyway so here's my update of the long hols =) great meet ups really.

Anyway, having some thoughts.. sparked by things i see ard me. =) and NO i'm not being emo here. Haha..Firstly to fel biao jie, somethings you've to give and take and accomodate.. since i cant tell u to hv a God centred relationship i wld say.. dont have an angered centred one. There's no point in being angry at one another because things just dont get solve like that...!!

to gene.. haha yes yes once again we're at sq 1 and same state.. really funny.. but i'm kind of getting comfortable with things like that.. so peaceful but like u said.. kind of no spice.. but i thank God for the friends He blessed me with. LOL and ya.. you're one of the people that i can really safely say "we're FRIENDS" if u get what i mean =Pp hahaha.. press on in ya new vocation.

Anyway, was just sparked by the ppl ard me (ESP JANIE AND MARK who Q me =pP) about what are the "citerias".. hah though i un-interested-ly said that i'm in such a stagnant state that i dont go and think about it and i dont really feel any "chem" working. But after much prompt and thought.. i just know ONE! that its i want a God centred relationship! glorify GOD , encourage one another, seek Him and grow spiritually together, and let everything point back to HIM. Which randomly somehow Yah Ting started asking me about it =p God's timing is really amazing .. anyway.. the whole incidents left me with a food for thought.... "what is a GOD centred relationship" =) interesting topic for a pretty much uninterested me =pP if u get what i mean...

*tsk btw ah yi i paragraph it specially for you* hahahahha..=X

I count my blessings.

Had a long week. Just something to remind myself about life. I count my blessings. Rushed down after school on wednesday to have my yearly medical checkup. This yearly med check i have to do at Health Promotion Board was since P6. Been there ever since after the P6 checkup they realised i had a slight doubleheart beat aka Mild AI. Finally, this is my last year doing it here. In fact, i was already too old to be there since it was a students' clinic. Being there really, brings back so much memories. I left the building with this thought that i had with me the week before, i count my blessings. Doing the ultrasound at raffles medical to clear medical for MOE a wk ago reminded me something, i was blessed. The nurse doing my ultrasound was scary! or rather she started asking me so many wierd questions that i thought something worst had happened. Ultrasound was like those thing that u can see your own insides aka i can see my heart valves as she scanned.. the convo went something like that..
nurse: "When was the last time u did your ultrasound? Are you doing checks yearly?"
me: "few years ago" (though minor checks were yearly)"
nurse: " Hmmm...." *scans around my heart* You know what happen?
me: " ya .. kind of.. been so long and i often forget it exist"
nurse "hmm....." *scans* The doctor told you how's your condition?
me: "ya. mild valve leak?"
nurse: " onLY? *with a scary tone* Hmmmm... *scans.. records*
*silence*
nurse: " The doc only say that?... *pause* *scans* Did he tell you anything else about what happen?"
me: *irritated and a little worried by her tone* ya... he did.. slight valve not closing? *peeks at my own ultrasound and i can see my slight valve not closing =p*
nurse: "only? hmmmm"
The convo ended there but seriously her tone almost gave me the biggest scare ever as i thought something bad happened =.= The ultrasound ended and the doc met me and he said a sentence ONLY! "Oh, dont worry. its so mild. Nothing to worry about. You can go already" Walking out of raffles medical, i count my blessings. I'm blessed because i know there are worst ppl out there while mine is just so mild that i can just totally ignore it. Now a wk later came the yearly check, did an ECG and met my specialist doc just as every year. doc: *checks* " ohhh its so mild that i cant hear any sound (she meant she didnt hear the double heartbeat sound laa cos if she didnt hear sound means my heart not beating =X)" In my heart i was like thinking you're a specialist and you cant even hear my double heartbeat sound?!? Thank God this was how minor my condition was. My mind wondered back years ago the first time i knew about it and the doc asked me to do an ultrasound to check how serious it was. Being really young, i was sent to NUH children Hospital to do it. There was this kid about toddler age waiting for his turn (b4 me) I overheard the doctor saying that his heart condition was serious and he had better be warded immediately. On the other end, i heard the convo of him to his friend. The boy holding a cross necklace in his hand and said.. my dad says.. the cross will protect me and will not be pain and i will get better. You can imagine how freaked i was since i was next to go in. =X But i always remember that young boy. Once again i count my blessings. My valve leak cld have been more serious or not closing even more but no... God blessed me. My mum was always feeling guilty about it but i told her.. I count my blessings because i focus on the fact that i'm much more blessed. i may not be perfect but i'm not suffering all these because I'm blessed and i count them so i am contented. So when life get tough dont blame about how life is tough but realise that how blessed you are thorough your tough time.

Sigh.. but life is tough. Things arent getting v smooth here at hm. I wish my sister was home to handle. but shes stuck far far in London. Its not me to handle such big responsibilty. Realised i've been highly reliant on my sis. Definitely its me to not want to face the issue but jus run from it or hide from it or not contribute constructively or just stay outside and let my sis settle. I'm proud to say i helped this trip but its too heavy a burden to decide bout things at home. Through it all, i count my blessings because my family is still close and supportive but i pray that they learn to turn to God for help and decision making.. just like i do.

Once again He led me to the book of Job. Going to read it..... =) Great play put up Matt and Iz.. I enjoyed seeing how we are being tested and trial yet how one holds on to his faith right till the very end. somehow having the situation acted out infront of you instead of just hearing stories of it made it really impactful to me.