Reflections

I really had to write these reflections down =) and act immediately (as i just reinforced in BS just now) YUP! i literally just step in from bible study with the girls and did a reflection on the bus home. Filled with exciting thoughts. =D

Firstly let me just "clarify" i'm not troubled but just been pondering on random issues. In fact, as i said, i've been really at peace these weeks. Not much internal struggle but just peace.

After the session with the girls, been really inspired. Started to explore the word "fear". The start of the week was a lesson learnt. After seeking my mentor's advice after an issue, i realised you can be a passive teacher or an active teacher. I had been a rather passive teacher. The "fear" of making the wrong comment, doing the wrong thing, pissing the wrong person of makes one want to be in the comfort zone. I come to realised that i've been in my comfort zone because of fear. Linking this to the video we watched during CG the week before when SP was talking about stepping out of the comfort zone. I realised that by approaching my senior teachers, mentors, HODs with love and sincerity and the passion to grow and learn, it was a platform to really be the active person.

This also reminds me of the coming Friendship Appreciation Day BBQ. Many of us may feel the "fear" therefore not being willing to move out of our comfort zone. Just pray that we remember and move out of our comfort zone by approaching each other's friends with love and sincerity and the passion to share His love. To be the active testimony for Christ. I'm looking forward to doing so. =)

I'm growing Lord. THANK you.

Looking forward to FAD....

GOD is faithful.

Here goes my weekend. Better blog b4 i start my week and neglect it again. haha.. GOD is faithful. I've been feeling pretty much at peace these week. No strugglings internally.. no lack of motivation.. THANK GOD. dedicated to GOD and to yah ting.. i manage to do it! i manage to wake and motivate myself up.. go for 10 service myself.. serve in sunbeam myself. its starting to be a routine that i can handle. Yah Ting! yup i finally did it. I know i'm not a good e-mail person.. i procrastinate replying.. or even sending out. I pledge to send you one every Sunday.. to update u on church and sermons. I pray that GOD would guide and lead me =)

Really looking forward to my CG friendship appreciation day.. invited my friends who mean dear to me. i pray that they will have a great fellowship time and be blessed. =)

God i come to realise i have one barrier that i know its going to be hard for me to step out of. I guess sometimes i guard my heart too much...Its this line that i cant seem to cross.. GOD refine me =)

Lord i offer my life to you. everything i've been through.. use it for your glory...

anyway, i've made the commitment to sign for IDT.

=) happy birthday Lishi

Celest is super irritated with someone at the moment but shall rant that later.

Just came back from Lishi's house =) yup. it was a surprise birthday party for her =) I havent laughed so much in one night. It was just a really crappy funny time just like the old times. Hanging around chit chatting... taking our crappy photos and coming up with crappy ideas. I am glad she had a good time! Shall put up the photos soon.

to the buddy that u have just irritated me...

i can only say you are super unlucky to let me see you when i was on the bus on the way home. I THINK you are really sUAY. of ALL timing i always see you. Next time just say you want to dota and not just give some crappy excuse can!!!! gaahh... DES...!!! can you help me to like whack him!!! stupid buddy..

lishi,karmun,laiyan,dasen.guang and fart dad... now you ALL know where john went instead of gg k! anyway.. its not about gg to play dota.. its just about saying it out =.=

okies anyway not gg to get irritated..

thanks for the good time at lishi's place today. really enjoyed myself. =D

Friday

By fartty dad's pop demand of complaining my blog has NTH. i shall talk about my friday =) The week was just filled with marking of compo scripts. COMMON marking is the most INTERESTING experience and its TOUGH!! anyway, took MC on a day to have a good rest too before my Friday came. Friday came! I brought the P6H kids to West Coast Park. Although it seemed like it was going to rain but it didnt! my P6s social studies class was there too. haha... had great "fun" being forced by the P6s girls to go and climb this pyramid there and also play this mini flying fox thing. haha. i think someone was trying to get back at me when i took that toilet picture of her huh! haha.. anyways... they were rowdy but i thank GOD that i didnt have to shout as much as i expected. It was also a really sunny day in the end. Oh wells. thats not the only time i work out. I also spent the time after that back at school playing bball with my p6 boys.. hahah erm.. i can only say i really miss playing bball.. I feel like playing bball!! so i really couldnt resist playing with them =X ... nAhhhh its no longer empty already...

and if you're wondering whats on 3rd nov!!

Just pray you dont get confined okay!!!

=) come and Check iT OUT =p

who's interested to comee along tell me too~! its a fun interesting exciting day =)

Another week ....

Unknowingly realised i didnt blog for a week! Especially since i had a really slack and easy week. It was PSLE marking week and goodness, only 4 teachers went back to school while the rest were posted out. so, seriously, the whole school and staffroom was so empty! Of the four days... i spent all of the mostly with 3 P6 kids who are doing this editing clip for the DV school video. One of them in which was FEL's sister (as i complained.. FELICIA I SPEND more TIME with your SISTER than i did With YA).

So fast another week passed. Its my favourite Sunday again. God laid upon my heart this burden but it was GOD who reminded me that He is indeed in sovereign control of it. As much as i pray that God would rekindle that burning desire in my sister so that we could be great testimony for my parents, i was reminded by Him to wait for things to happen and His time and He would indeed do so. Sunday morning was before church was too eventful. I struggled with this slight disappointment in GOD realising that my prayers the day before night had been dashed once again but immediately recognised that He was in control and indeed He blessed the situation and turned it. Thank GOD that today sermon i hopefully pray it spoke to her heart. I felt it was pretty relevant to what had just happened and i pray that GOD is working. I am reminded to wait upon Him and He will make things happen in His time. Thank God for this opportunity.

God refine our hearts...

Towards moving over to woodlands...

It was quite expected..

but i'm actually quite excited =D

.....*prayerfully considering IDT* .....

Complete

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

I kind of enjoyed sermon today. It just reminded me of two things that area laid upon my heart. My QT which i keep procrastinating and not take action. Once again i was reminded. once again i was moved.. once again i know that serious action should be taken. "In Your strength will I break through, Lord" Thank GOD that i made the motivation to wake up to go for church 10 service. Thank GOD that i felt that need for pushing myself to be independent. After setting 5 consecutive alarms, i woke up and motivated myself to go to church myself. Just felt this peace that GOD was laying upon my heart that i was not alone. "And by faith, I will walk on, Lord" Lord is with me =) I am strengthen in you LORD. Only you make me feel complete. =)

Went for dim sum to celebrate my parents anniversary. GOD bless them. Just love spending such quality time with them. I went shopping after that =D whee.. bought alot of things.. and very happy.. hahaha... =X

Been a very rocky week spiritually. Dont really know why i dont really feel like "interacting" with ppl recently.. haha though ironically met up with alot of ppl to interact. Physically there spiritually away =X

Met up with di on saturday.. finally! after all the flying and busy us. Once again you're flying! Busy busy. just want to say.. sometimes when i crap, i just want you to take ur mind of thinking thats why i crap. Kind of really want to see u pick up soon.. to be that super irritating di of mine that can so totally spite and irritate me so much that i feel like whacking you. haha thats the di that i know =p press on please.. GOD is with you. rest in Him.

got to meet up with the GREen monster too =p okay.. fartty dad.. who so misses guava and sour plums after the trip back from brunei. =) i havent met u in SOOOO long!!! so it was great to meet up and chit-chat though it was a short time... heh heh..i give u a medal for being able to stand my "rubbish" =)

Term 4 Wk.....?

Band is quite "fun". Its interesting to "bully" the kids. okay i mean just seeing them practise. haha.. It was quite interesting to see the drummer! He could play quite well! I was pretty amazed and he made me tempted to learn drums. =)

I met up with quite a few people this week,, quite randomly a pri-sch mate who i had recently met through my jc friends.. haha.. quite highly random but quite blessed to know. Thank GOD for the chit-chat session and for a companion to finish my FTT with me! Also met up with Sam and Serxing. They made a conclusion.. BP girls cant get attached =p please consult them with their deductions. hahahahaha... great time of chit-chat session too!

Lastly. WHERE IS MY FARTTY DADDY!!! ARENT YOU BACK FROM BRUNEI ALREADY!!!! quick .. the big green hulk is needeD! theres too much crap building up =X lack of avenue to release.. hahahaa.. =)

*sigh* dont know why i am feeling so lethargic and lazy... =X

the week

Thank GOD for Anna's birthday. I went to attend her church bible study group. They were talking about giving too! =) Thank GOD for that... just as i THANK GOD for her. To this colleague of mine who been through all the rantings and praising GOD for all the blessings we have each day. For enjoying our cam whore and crapping in the staff room and for marking and teaching hard each day. Thank GOD for this sis-in-christ who supports me with our post it notes on our tables each day =)

Thank GOD for Ruth =) Blessed birthday girl.. As a "surprise" birthday session, we went to MOS with my cell group. YES you heard me. i went there with my cell and that is definitely the best group of ppl to go MOS with. =D because you will feel totally protected by GOD's people. Clubbing with them was pretty fun though its not really totally my type of activity. =D but its definitely fun to just chill out with them...Haha.. but.. mm the retro room we settled in was really retro =p THANK GOD for the day =)

Thank GOD for the P6s. It was PSLE week. the teachers are all feeling stressed! they seem more stressed than their kids though!! maths paper was hard... felt kinda "worried" for my students. Just pray for good moderation. Thank GOD for allowing me to see that i could make a difference... for this P6 student who we made a pact. He managed to quit smoking and drinking! Thank GOD for the opportunity to show him the videos i saw at church last week. It was heart warming to know he knew who was christ though he was distant and is distant and prob hard for him to take the step closer to know my GOD is different from his.

p.s THE HULK was showing on tv on sunday!! but the GREEN monster is in Brunei!! quickly come back!! =p

Happy Children's Day

Thank GOD for the wonderful children's day =D I managed to catch up with the girls who esp Laiyan ah yi i've not met for sO long. Had a "tea" at fish & co before we decided to do something really "dumb" and "retro" by taking neoprints since we did not do so for a long time! =.= yeah. After that before we got so fascinated by cough cough some thingS at newurbanmale huh =X hahaha.. Anyway, i was really glad that four of us managed to catch up and chit chat =)

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL

We are all children! Child of GOD... =)

"That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaaven, for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust" Matt 5:45

Praise the Lord our Father =D and rejoice because we are his child.

P.s. To soon leng who is going to brunei for two weeks.. quickly come back!! if not who's going to listen to my craps?? i will pray for ya! heh ... take care fartty =p CHILDREN DAY PRESENT PLEASE!!! =)