Once again He led me to the book of Job. Going to read it..... =) Great play put up Matt and Iz.. I enjoyed seeing how we are being tested and trial yet how one holds on to his faith right till the very end. somehow having the situation acted out infront of you instead of just hearing stories of it made it really impactful to me.

ExcuRsion To RP =X

To those who asked how was training... RP is SO BIG!!!! and SO MANY STUDENTS!! =X okay.. i sound abit "suaku" here..The two days of MOE training had finally came to an end. Marks the beginning of my teaching journey.2 days there make me feel like a poly student!! Firstly let me explain how crappy we were stepping into the poly in day 1.. we were sO amazed at the no. of ppl going into the poly!!! SO MANY!! its like triple or more times the ppl walking into pj..! ALOT ! hah. Next, we crappily tried to follow some pathetic signs that led us to E2.6 which after a while we realised E= East 6=lv 6!! Haha.. We took the lift (amazed theres one) up to L6~! Day 2..still awe in amazement at the BIG HERDS of ppl walking in at 9am.. LOL. Lunch time came.. we were trying to find food court C.. WAH! we realised they had escalator..!!! =p and after taking it up.. we got lost as we didnt see any signs already. In the end had to ask this person who asked us where were we from.. i think he must be thinking we abit suaaku.. =p After training! we did a eveN crappier thing!! we asked this 2 poly students to help us to take picture =.= i think the person must think we're crazy or something! Anyway, back to training... these two days had been inspiring and learnt alot of skills. Inspiring because it really told me it takes the calling to be a teacher. Without the passion to teach you really cant survive in teaching. The skills learnt were really useful in capturing attention. On top of that, i had a growing sense of respect for all my previous teachers in my life. Teaching isnt an easy job. Easy on the outside yet behind it is alot of hard work and effort. *respect*.
Did a survey and this was what it said about my management style =X

Teacher Effectiveness Training
This approach focuses on the teacher-student relationship. Such an effective relationship should be open, caring, independent and mutually supportive without the use of "coercive" or authoritarian methods of behaviour control.


http://www.makeadifferencemovie.com/
This was what the lecturer let us see during the training.. it really tells me how a teacher can make a difference...its really inspiring to know.. she also ended with this ...

http://www.inspiringthots.net/movie/life-on-train.php

Take a look at this two.. its really inspiring and nice.. esp the last one =)
Towards a future i am uncertain about.. i trust God.
because i remember someone asking me.. if i wanted to make a difference in kids life or did i want to make a difference in the economy.. i knew my answer was... make a difference in kids life...

Just realised i havent been updating WORDS for a long time.. although "pictures are supposed to say a thousand words right".. Anyway, alot had been happening.. happening too many things at one shot that i cant update on time.. College day.. Mel leaving... 8th council invest.. Last day at Ministry of manpower.. CG outing.. and tomorrow a new beginning to a new phase.. Having much mixed emotions about it. Firstly to
Mel - Its going to be a long distance away from S'pore.. i admire your courage to go to such a far place and study yourself. Its alot to have to put down all the things in S'pore... We will definitely miss you alot..

8th council - Frm the 6th to the 7th and now the 8th.. keep the spirit burning... =)

MOM colleagues - You all have been a really great bunch.. i'm sad to leave you all early.. and leave you all piled with my set of IHSS to cover. =X We really clicked well..and we know this short memories of 2 mths will last on~

Okies and a short update on CG outing. =) i had sO much fun and bonding session. It was a fun filled day despite the last minute change in venue from sentosa to chang zhi's house due to the rain. Yups we managed to have our fair share of sharing, fun and games, worship, prayers and celebrating Guo Zheng's b'day! Praise the Lord =) The CG shared about how each of us came to know christ.. While sharing, the Lord laid something upon my heart. I shared about how this friend of mine brought me to church and back close to christ in sec sch.. As i did so, i felt this sense of.. sadness as i thought of how far u fell away from God instead. I know that you are going through hard times.. i wouldnt deny that initially i was disappointed esp when last wk u just didnt turn up for church.. but my disappointment immediately changed to worry.. Through all the heartaches and pain you're going through now.. i just really hope u turn to God and seek Him and let Him heal you.. you're not useless! you're special in God's eyes.. I hope to see you ready and this trip come along with me to church k =) yeah.. just something LORD placed i my heart to look over this Di of mine.. Hey.. we're supposed to meet in heaven remember..

Tsk tsk for pictures ya... go to www.celestong.multiply.com heh.. uploaded all my pics there =) so if u want just get it from there too =p

Anyway, i can say now that i was truely back to normal the past few days.. after the biggest burden in my heart was placed down when i made the decision for my future..but towards the new phase ahead.. the uncertainty settles in again.. God please bless me...

Yah Ting and i =)

SoOOoo cute right.. =D

yummy food =p with yt's hands

... Councillors at Mel's party..

Cutie pEnguin anD i =)

Us again =)

JoHnx and I

Trying to act tai tai (though i look kinda shag already)

Biao ge and i =D

Four of us

Dark attempt to crap =X

Dearest Ms Xiao Mei Mei =D

... Ms Chong...

Form teacher, class manager, assistant class manager =D

some of.. 6th Council..(tsk want the rest of the copies catch me online) =p

Mr TonG~ and i (wearing Pioneer CoLours LOr) oh ya and a Mr coun president behind =p

Service today was great. Thank God that although i did not have Yah Ting for company i had a bunch of brothers (literally) who all went for 10 service =) Just when i thought i should just try to get use going 10 service myself every alt week. God spoke to me during the service.. not only in one aspect but a few. Pastor Kay Kiong (=p) message was always great.. He set this conviction upon my heart. Just when the night before i was chit chatting to my mum.. suddenly had this realisation that they had aged and i had grown. Being the youngest, i always like being pampered.. that night while chatting to her and looking at her.. there was this growing burden in my heart. A great fear of seeing my parents unsaved, wondering one day would i regret not doing anything about it. I felt really burden to pray about it that night...At service,pastor addressed this issue which had burden me for long.. he set this conviction in my heart for me to really pray and reach out to my parents.. and .. my sis..So fast year by year just passed like that..I dont want to come to a day that i regret not doing anything about it. Its also a reminder for me to reach out to my loved ones and friends...
Song at church today also spoke to me... Its exactly the prayer i pray.. To the decision i finally make about my future.. i feel really insecure at times but this song really says it all.

I OFFER MY LIFE
(Verse 1)
All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain,
I'm making them yours

(Chorus)
Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

(Verse 2)
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

(Bridge)
What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF0m0duSyPA&mode=related&search=

My regrets, my aclaim, my joy, my pain.. I'm making them Yours.. because Lord I offer you my life and i know that everything i have been through/is going through/ am going to go through... Use it for your glory.. my life as a pleasing sacrifice to you Lord.. No doubt i feel insecure about my future and doubtful about my direction but one thing i am sure is that my life is offered to you that i may glorify your name...I have a dream.. i have an ambition.. the path i take leads me there..only if i work hard..Things in the past.. Things of the future unseen.. my wishes and dreams yet to fulfill..but i know I surrender to you that my heart is lifted to You. I like the bridge of the song.. What do i have that is not already Yours... Lord i am contented with my life.. contented with lifting my life to you as a living sacrifice...

I am determined to work hard.. I have a yet to fulfilled ambition that is going to take me hard hard work to achieve. I am going to achieve it and be a great testimony glorifying Him..
I will...

It was Wear-Specs-week at work today..okay.. i admit.. its cause i had sore eyes and its still not totally recover till now!! =X The doc told my colleague its phelgm coming out of the tear gland.. sound sO disgusting right.. yeah.. some flu going on in my wk place. 8/9 of them is sick including me (which i think i'm one of the few pioneers) =X haha.. being sick really sucks.. i lost weight this week!! Yeah.. along the week i met up with my cg girls.. it was a good sharing cum dinner eating session. It made me miss Yah Ting more though =X hah.. ahhh.. *sigh*.. I'll be praying about the direction in church ba.. well. Met KM to go to SIM to settle some admin stuff with her.. Deep inside my heart i kind of know why i made the decision to go down with her. I said a prayer and ask God to use this opportunity to speak to me in any way... Somehow, i finally hear from Him.. Its that peace and serenity after i made the decision that made me confirmed that it is His will. The bus journey home i kept praising, praying and listening my way home.. Its that moment that i really felt His presence.. I kept asking .. "God is that you?" .. It sounds wierd but that sense of peace calm me. It may be the most bizarre route to take.. that everyone may seem puzzled why i'm doing so when other paths may seem better.. but i just have that confidence that i can make it. It made me realised that all this while .. maybe i was subconsciously rejecting God's will... fighting against this "wierd and tough" road ahead..
I read Xian's blog.. feeling a sense of.. mm.. wierdness again. I miss Su Xian.. like you said.. all our lives we had been in the same school.. BPPS... the first day of BPGHS.. how we really jumped for joy seeing our postings... then even to Pioneer and being in the same class all 3 times. Its been a long journey and lots of memories.. First time our lives seperates into different path.. one thing for sure that even if i'm not there to support u physically, my heart is with u.. and you'll always be my bestest longest friend no matter where u are...
Just went to watch transformers.. =) nice show nice show.. felt so "high" after watching the movie.. haha.. and i'm falling in love with seaweed... haha.. as my colleague would say.. after eating it got "ai de gan jue" aka "love feeling" LOL.. =.= sound crappy!! yepsss.. sigh.. i dont know why now feeling eMo againg LOl.. oH mian.. mood swing..Rah.. must be some Relative coming to visit soon =p LOL.. oh mian.. *sigh* i want to go to the sea side tomorrow!!!! Hah.. but why do i have a feeling i wouldnt be going... =.=

Fartty daddy... quickly quickly quickly come back.. confine soooo long already!! the stars all fading already...!! come back then i can rant moree =p

Edi di... dont worry.. i will support ya~ jia you~ but remember dont disappoint God. He is waiting patiently for you to return and because of that, JIAYOU !! church this week horxx..

Xian ... all the best for ur endeavours.. i will miss u.. =X
Endeavour with all our might (BPPS)
Dilligent in Study and Practice (BPGHS)
While I live I learn (PJC)

Troubled... troubled.. troubled.. Stumped at His works... A sudden twist of receiving a letter really make me feel so burden to re-think what i already thought i figured. My mood felt really stormy..before i calm down to think again. God is testing me... He add trials on top of trials... I wonder when will i finally soar above these troubles.. I surrender to Him.. but i still dont know which step to take.. When will this burden in my heart be settled.. soon i guess.. if its "..follow my heart.." i know where its tilted to...if its "follow the need" i know where to go... Still analysing all the opinions i got.. but my mind seem to mess up once i think about it.. =X i know.. i just want to..... follow God..

Just when will all these end....
Will i be able to hold my faith and trust till the end?
Through all these i can feel myself waivering up and down...
a nice song... aka my blog song...
I will be still know you are God.. despite the storms I know you are there.. and i find rest in Christ alone in quietness and trust..

Still

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

http://youtube.com/watch?v=zwl_v2hRCjw&mode=related&search=
=X feeling kinda eMo now.. haix~ feel like going to the Seaside

hehe family pioneer u =X

Girls and Mr Tay =D

Pioneer U outing to Mr Tay house!! (we purposely wore there loRx)