Jesus shall take the highest Honour

I'm BACK.

Here to give my thanksgiving and praise to LORD JESUS.
Finally it's results day!!!
GPA - 4.33 not too bad...
although was aiming a 4.5 so a bit disappointed...
but i give thanks and praise GOD. Because i recognise that it's from HIM.

and so.. the song that keeps playing thru my mind....

Jesus shall take the highest honour

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Lp_Z0oGy7k&feature=related
For all honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
All honour and blessing and power
Belongs to You, belongs to You
Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the living God

Belongs to HIM.
Thank GOD for all results.

pics at zhenghua

=) there's joy =)

sense of satisfaction

Last paper lorrrrr... (though it was terrible =S )
Exams ended! *finally*

Spent my day at Zhenghua for their anniversary celebrations after my paper..
Indeed seeing my students and even the band alumni ticks my heart =p
haha.. suddenly ignite my passion to teach and the euphoria that comes from seeing them grow up.
haha although i just havent seen them for like few months... but seeing them grow physically and seeing the sec school kids grow up mentally is somewhat satisfying. I guess thats the very reason why teaching makes me tick. =)

Seeing my ex-colleagues was heartwarming too =)
some sort felt like "going home"

=)

THANK GOD for such relationships built..
Students and colleagues.. =D

prayer requests

PRAY:

Guard against negative thoughts that is not from Him
Strength admist all the lethagy and aches
Trust GOD's healing
Know GOD's plan is the best
Release my fear and worries about uncertainities to HIM.
Release and surrender my life and health to HIM.

my perspective about life have been moulding and changing upon these weeks.
To say

GOD, my life is from YOU.
Do what you know is best.

*i never used to really understood this... i seem to be growing to understand this*

When the tears fall we are never alone

There is one thing i will cling to...

WHen hope is lost, i call you saviour..
When pain surrounds, i call you healer...
when silence falls, you be the song within my heart

I will praise you..
when the tears fall still i will sing to you.

This is a tiring week physically and mentally...
GOD heal my pain...
though i dont know whats wrong with me..

blessings in stress

Admist my stress i just had to spam some photo.. reminded myself..

GOD blessed me with people
Loved ones to see me through my stress...
I'm still blessed...

BUS journey to NIGHT safari =p

Essentially, so if you're a mugger = crocodile = buaya =p

Boyfriend?!? =p

Hmmm... girlfriend?!? =p

Finally!!! After graduating for ONE year plus =)

Still dare to celebrate birthday with us?! =p

ahhhhh bunch of us.

Fartty girls -- =) =) =) =(

Retarded piccctureeeeeee =p

Last but not least bye bye Fartty daddy... 29/10 to 01/12 ONLY la. =X haha.. enjoy with all my "friends" over there =p after that you're closer to ORD lo.. =) press on SIR!

GOD is good.
through my stomach pain which is still existing after a week..
God is still Good..
why else am i blessed with beloved friends and family..

Surrender

Fear is of the devil and not of GOD.
Fear of losing unsaved loved one.
Your friends, family...

It's always been a reminder to me each wake i attend..
would it be see you again
or.. eternally gone..
sometimes the things they do there just seems like a facade to me..
It's such a struggle...

i shake with fear thinking what if it's not in His plan...
what if their names are not on GOD's book..

My greatest burden i carry that i must learn to surrender it to GOD.
sometimes making me wonder and count that i should be doing more...

How easy it is to say "God i surrender to you my all"
but you know how hard it is to really face it and do so?

My prayers go out to my bro..
it's such vulnerable time that the devil takes chance to deceive...
but GOD has been victorious at the cross..
i pray He brings you out in victory and emerge a stronger christian...

I'm sure one day.. through it all..
we'll be able to say... with pride..

"GOD Is good ALL the TIME"

lines

God,
where is the line...
where is that line...
where is Your line...

seriously.. i dont know what i'm really struggling with...
i'm struggling... with a line.
fine line. thin line. Your line.

"Great is your faithfulness oh God
You wrestle with the sinner's heart
You lead us by still waters into mercy
And nothing can keep us apart"

Deep down something is rebelling...
Deep down something i'm struggling..

God will deal and emerge in victory rights.
His grace is enough...

Recess week in pics

Saturday -

Birthday buddy

what a pose caught in action *cough*

Chanced upon Su and Dasen!!

Our drinks

Lunch buddies =)

Monday - study
Tuesday - study + met up with edi and chun (no pics)
Wednesday - ICE SKATING!!! =) super fun and entertaining time =)
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Saturday -

There goes my dear sister in christ.. off to study again! =) GOD BLESS...

...dedicated to my friends...

Here for you

So you think you've got it all figured out
Well you know you can't make it alone
Everbody needs somebody to help them out
And you know I could be that someone
And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know

Chorus :
I am here for you, always here for you
When you need a shoulder to cry on
Someone to rely on, I am here for you
So you think that love is long overdue
Tired of looking for someone to care
Let me tell you know the choice is up to you
But you know I will always be there
I am here for you, always here for you
When you're needin` someone to hold you
Remember I told you
I am here for you, I am here for you

So now you've got it all figured out
And you know you've found someone that cares
And if you ever need somebody to help you out
Well you know I will always be there
And if you ever get lost on life's highway
Don't know where to go
There's just one thing that I want you to know

Such a super nice song dedication from edi =) THANKS!
gosh 7 years passed and another 50 more to meeting in old folk's home =p
Yup i guess di reminded me about this phrase *thats what friends are for*
No doubt tough to keep up with so many friends in my life...but i guess this song is dedicated out to my friends.. Despite me being caught up with my work, with my life, nevertheless.. i will always be there.. i am here for you. (go listen it's a nice song) =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQhBAH8A9sc

... to my friends... =)
i guess i'm blessed with such covenant friends too..

...back for while...

Not that i've disappeared. Just havent found time!!
Time flies! it's been a month since i blogged.

1) Apple lollipops are so not soothing... they're sour =S
2) My P2 Student chatted with me all the way home. =p
3) My CGL's married!! ;)
4) Work is never ending... waiting for end of term.... ....
5) Before i regret it, please let me meet up with yah ting before she flies again.

...Strength will rise as we wait upon the LORD...

Teaching

...Teachers...

Teachers' Day is coming.
I lingered at popular to get a card for my teacher.
Yes. that makes a teacher getting a card for a teacher. =P

I'm so thankful for GOD's blessings of ppl He places in my life.
The people He uses to encourage me... =)
This is the person who spur me on and encourage me on and inspire me on today..
Ever since 8 years ago.. never failing LOVE, that's the impact of a teacher.
The teacher i desire to be too....

A teacher's love and care and influence never stops the day you graduate.
Nearly 8 years later, standing in BPPS once again.
Made a trip down to BPPS today to visit my primary school teacher.
Spent my whole afternoon revisiting the place, chatting and just reflecting.
Indeed once again i renewed that calling to teach.
A chat of reminder that teaching is not just passing academic knowledge and paper achievements. You're not just teaching a person, you're moulding someone's value and character. Once again the one and only struggle i had about joining teaching was dismissed with encouragement from my her. Realised how my heart was with BP too upon missing the place...

Teacher's are role models.
Just as i reflect how much she impacted my life, i realised that's how much an impact i could make on my student too. Teaching is never a short term thing where you see instant results or impact (unless u just look at paper results), teaching affects eternity and is a long term investment. I'm glad to say i'm a result of teacher's investment and i desire to be a teacher that invests in lifes too.

..prayer..

Couldnt stop getting stuck in this limbo...

Walking with GOD or defiant child.
GOD's way or stubborn ideas.
Seeing eternity or not being practical.
Faithful God's child or wierd child.

It depends of which perspective you're looking from.

Sometimes... just sometimes... i wonder... which role i am...
will there be a day where the decisions i make in life are right in your eyes?
will there be a day where we see in that same perspective... that heaven beyond earth..
i pray we do.

...vainity...

Vainity, Vainity.

I hate comparison, hate stereotypes, hate being different, hate having to please, hate superficial things, hate the things the world chases, hate the mindsets of the world, hate having to live up to the world's standard, hate trying to make ppl see that it's not all about superficial things but it's about the heart, it's about His will.

It's that hard to see things in HIS way?
Is it that hard to realise the world's standard is superficial?
Are we that blinded by treasures on earth?
Why is it when you seek GOD's way you feel so persecuted?

what exactly are we chasing after....
stop comparing with the world.

Vainity, everything, Vainity!
&

I hate it.

Aphorism

"We exclude because we dont understand....
We don't understand because of limited contact...
We lack contact because we exclude."

Took this off my Psychology text.. =) Was pretty amused at this statements. In the text it was mostly in context of disabled and special needs in our society. Taking it out of context, this "theory" applies to alot of other things...

Relate to people we have bad impression about and not wanting to "include" them
Relate to GOD who people not want to "include" in their life.
Relate to things that we exclude in our life.

We exclude because we just dont want to include something unknown (lack of understanding about the thing), a lack of understanding actually due to no or little opportunities interacting with the thing, but we must recognise that we lack contact because to start with, we just dont want to include because of the assumptions and belief we already have about the thing that we just dont want to reconstruct our thoughts to include the thing.

Dont know if it make sense to you..
but i think it made sense to me =)

- Week 1 -

This is to the start of school... =)

Challenging, exciting, anticipating, interesting.

Nevertheless...

GOD blessed journey.

Thanks be to GOD

-- Woodland church!!! --

the excitement in me boiled. The first dop there, the first service and seeing the ppl flooding into church. It excites me, it stirs me. Such.. joy is felt =) Our chuch is built!! It is so majestic...but.. THANKS be to GOD.

-- School --

It's not that i'm not blogging. Life is just changing too fast for me to chase and update. Orientation week is over, School officially starts tomorrow. There's that start school jitters, but there's also a sense of peace. THANKS be to GOD.

Thanks to my awesome GOD....and to this song that is stuck in my head.

*Our God is an awesome GOD

He reigns from heaven above

with wisdom, power and love

Our God is an awesome GOD*

The cry out to woodlands ppl... =) The cry out to all the people on earth =)

run,,, to keep in pace... with changes...

I ran today~! Though i dont think it was very far. I managed to run to my favourite place. I havent been there for a long while. It gave me such great sense of serenity to be back there. I guess it's a place that seen me thru many ups and down times... Felt a bit nostalgic..

SkY (maybe you could figure under which part of the sky i am at..)

... or how bout which part of the ground that i'm stepping on......

Dont worry i didnt run until west coast or something. It is just The only place i know that has a sand swing playground in BP... =) ...my fav place in bp...

I still havent really kept up with my changing lifestyle. Just trying to run along and to keep up with the pace.

Within 2 wks, my scheduel seems to be turned upside down...

Work ----- > school

Church ----> Woodlands

Excitedly worried. oh man. what an oxymoron.

At least i know.. He will walk me thru. His promises. =) Amen.

House made of love.

I've got a home in heaven made up of love. Do you want to come along and stay?

The Doors are open... and the love is overflowing, covering you and walking you out of lonliness and fear because, we are all made to be loved.

Do you except His love invitation?

God will make a way

Yesterday a teacher, Today a student.

First day of school started with briefings =)
My initial queasy feeling is slowly fading. Suddenly got really excited about starting school. Couldnt wait to study...(sound a bit sadistic) but on the other hand also having some uneasiness about having high expectations yet doubting my own ability. This explains my title. GOD WILL MAKE A WAY. Just wanted to track down this day in which i start my journey of studying. GOD will be faithful to plan my road the way He know is best for me. If it is in His plans, He will make a way. He will be faithful to complete this journey He started with me. I am comforted. I am excited. =)

After some extreme makeover and contributing to recycling... this i what i managed to clear both my office table and my room table to be.... From teacher to student... *special thanks to my dearest 'kor kor'* for helping meee =)

Happy Lunch buddy Birthday!

19th July... LUNCH BUDDIES

According to some detailed calculations, this is the lunch buddy birthday !

(adding our b;days dividing by 4) =)

okay.. and to celebrate buddy john birthday too.. here's the pics.. (before i get scolded for being photo inefficient)

Boys buddies

Birthday boy buddy

*mei nu duo duo* exclusive creation for birthday boy.

girl buddies =)

It was a well spent time of eating... eating.... making attap seed pop, striking intellectual =p conversations.. and catching up on each others life. I'm glad we got to share our perspective of relationships =p the guy and girl version LOL. dearest lunch buddies... =)

...nonsensical...

Feelings are also known as a state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments or desires.

I feel like eating chocolate (desires)
I feel like eating ice cream (desires)

I feel like running (emotions)
I feel like playing bball (emotions)

I feel like going there. (sentiments)
I feel like doing that. (sentiments)

but i cant and i didnt.

Sometimes, reality makes feelings fantasy.

what caused me to just utter a page of nonsense.

I will sing....

Lord You seem so far away.
A million miles or more it feels today.
And though I haven't lost my faith,
I must confess right now that it's hard for me to pray.

But I don't know what to say and I don't know where to start.
But as You give the grace with all that's in my heart.

I will sing. I will praise
even in my darkest time
through the sorrow and the pain.
I will sing. I will praise.
Lift my hands to honor You
because Your word is true.
I will sing.

Lord it's hard for me to see
all the thoughts and plans You have for me.
But I will put my trust in You.
Knowing that You died to set me free.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUAz6HgNfnM

BUT i put my trust in YOU. despite how had it is for me to see all the thoughts and plans You have for me. God will make a way. He will see us through. =)

The Screwtape Letters... *reflections*

airway sensitivity aka "asthma cough" ... *hmm* reading up on it online seems a little scary so shant do so. Prayers that i'll get well soon!! =)

Reflections admist MC today. XP Spent a day in bed and with books. Got so hooked on this book for a long while...Such a thought challenging book! *warning...ignore post if you're brain dead*

The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis.

This book is about letters from a devil written to his nephew devil to tempt and play with human's mind. (in short)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Screwtape_Letters (read more)

Just thought i would highlight some interesting portion which really show us how the devil attempts to tempt us....

" We want him to be in the maximum uncertainty, so that his mind will be filled with contadictory pictures of the future, every one of which arouses hope or fear. There is nothing like suspense and anxiety for barricading a human's mind against the Enemy(GOD), He (GOD) wants men to be concerned with what they do; our business is to keep them thinking aobut what will happen to them."

The devil tempts us to worry, to fear about the future, to live in uncertainty and hopefully doubt GOD's will for us.

"Keep his mind on the inner life. He thinks his conversion is something inside him and his attention is therefore chiefly turned at present to the states of his own mind—or rather to that very expurgated version of them which is all you should allow him to see. Encourage this. Keep his mind off the most elementary duties by directing it to the most advanced and spiritual ones. Aggravate that most useful human characteristic, the horror and neglect of the obvious. You must bring him to a condition in which he can practise self-examination for an hour without discovering any of those facts about himself ,which are perfectly clear to anyone who has over lived in the same house with him or worked the same office."

The devil tempts us to focus so much on ourselves. That we become disillusioned and oblivious to things around us and actions that we potray. He tries to decieve us.

http://members.fortunecity.com/phantom1/books2/c._s._lewis_-_the_screwtape_letters.htm

Only shared 2 portions... above is the site with the letters. =)

05s12 outing

05S12 ... =) after 2 years...

pics

My overdued-church camp photos...=)

Alrights.. i know my blog has been stagnant... rights. the pics are coming soon.

Its going to be a new phrase in life.

*anticipation*

whats' exciting

All rights.. i admit i was just too lazy to update and trying to soak up whats left of my hols.

Alot of pics from church camp. Camp was definitely such a blessing. Thank GOD.

shall update and upload when i've the mood/time =p

now.. what's exciting.

Sat: Love Sem

Sun: MY dearest jie mei aka sister aka YAH TING is finally BACK!!! Its been almost a year!! i'm excited =p

Meet up list

Let me just re-list my meet up list for the hols with pic

Met to date:

Eugene (at pizza hut)

Fartty fam girls + biao ge...

Fartty Daddy (after coming back from overseas)

RAYS outing (church) - alright not so much meet up since i see them weekly =p

cell group (whats left by that time) =)

Connie

Spent quite some time with this girl today =) its been great meeting up after so long. Remember... stay cheerful and smile... *cheers* to our *lame-cute* girls =p

Su Xian

My dear longest time friend, concluded the best way to choose where to eat is to cut of food places appearing in lot one and bpp =p anyway, cant believe we got cheated by a lady and an old man today. hoho but brought to me so much laughter that i started laughing till i had tears. Its been a joyful day... =) We always pick where we left off. =)

Thats the current to date meet up list!

Its a blessing to catch up with my friends after being lazy for a week =p

Still have a few ppl on my to-meet list this hols..

the list goes on =)

L.O.V.E.

No.. i didnt jump...

I merely straightened out the circle of thoughts...

to become a line...

Its now a journey.. =)

for GOD.

You dont FALL in love, you LEARN to GROW in LOVE.

SO, here's my opportunity to share this ...

DATE : 21st June 2008. (Saturday)
VENUE : BluJaz Café (Bugis)
TIME: 2.30pm - 5.30pm (Be seated by 2.15pm)
Admission is strictly by ticket only

Tickets price: (ask me) =p
Here is the chance to learn to love and be blessed by this.

This is for everyone (just tag me if ya interested) but esp to

lunch buddies, Fartty fam: I'll definitely invite u personally meanwhile just blk of ur scheduel okaayyy?

Felicia: the whole wkshop just makes me think of you.. so u better be free!

Karmun: no u dont have to bring a boyfriend =p but u can consider bringing 'daddy'

Come and learn and grow in love... =)

...circles...

Finally met up with Fartty daddy today,he brought me to tour Safti.

LOL. its an interesting tour i guess!!

Very thankful because today value added to my reflections.

Just as i related to him about my thoughts about teaching (once again knowing this is probably not the first time i blabber out) He never fails to give me interesting pondering questions. BUT i think the most classic statement...

"Actually you had already long made your decision."

I just kept silent for while and reflected about all that i had just said. Then, the realisation settled in. He was right. Actually i had already decided, probably just taunted by the insecurities of the uncertain future. =) My career is decided...

I want to teach.

i realised my thoughts travelling in circles.

Circle goes round and round and round and it knows no end...

when you come to the edge of a circle, would you carry on going round even when you know thats no end or would you dare to jump of the edge? I cant describe the feeling in words... but using a circle. When you are at that point and you have to make a decision.. What will you do?

just thankful knowing that if i jump GOD will be there to catch =)

.reflections.

A smile made everything seems worthwhile.

Teaching

I was reminded, i made my conviction, i relooked at my passion,

i couldnt imagine myself anywhere else except.. making a difference...

This is what i want to do. placing that smiles where they belong...

"like some pastry/chocolate shop.. some cosy shop that can be a chillout/hideout for ppl and make ppl happy! (childcare centre too)" - - but holding Yah Ting responsible for this little dream too =p

One down.. next... =)

walk by faith not by sight

By Faith Not Sight

Sometimes I'm sad, I know not why
My heart is sore distressed;
It seems the burdens of this world
Have settled on my heart.

And yet I know... I know that God
Who doeth all things right
Will lead me thus to understand
To walk by FAITH...not SIGHT.

And though I may not see the way
He's planned for me to go,
The way seems dark to me just
But oh, I'm sure He knows!

Today He guides my feeble step
Tomorrow's in His right...
He has asked me to never fear...
But walk by FAITH...not SIGHT.

Some day the mists will roll away,
The sun will shine again.
I'll see the beauty in the flowers,
I'll hear the bird's refrain,

And then I'll know my Father's hand
Has led the way to light
Because I placed my hand in His
And walked by FAITH...not SIGHT.

-Ruth A. Morgan

To walk by FAITH and NOT by SIGHT.

Was very enlighten by Sunday's sermon. Within a day GOD showed me i didnt have that much faith that i thought i had.

Shall take the hols to rest and reflect, to grow and to decide, to listen and to obey.

Thankful for all GOD's blessings.

=) thankful for a special long e-mail from faraway land from dearest yah ting...

mmm.. with that mail, i shall ponder about ... my future... =) *thanks*

*reality check*

Where God's will flies,
my feet follow in God's speed,
in God's time.

When God's will calls me on,
I dance into His arms,
I tango with my dreams.

If God's will takes,
I let loose my tight grip,
let loose of what I thought I needed.

How God's will carries,
is in strong arms,
is in sure reason,
is in my interest,
and I have let go.

Its that defeaning silence that can really kill.

I seem to be hearing that same silence i heard a year ago.

God, just what are you trying to tell me...

i secretly think He is shaking and testing my patience and faith again

just as a year ago... trying Hearing God's voice and doing His will.

Alrights... here is why..

i got my letter.

when the initial triumph settles, there is that sense of reality check...

...Random pics...

*complains* This is what happened after school.

Celest: I shall walk down then walk up to go to tution.

Tseruey: Huh? what walk down then walk up.

Celest: I mean i shall walk down then CuT through the park to walk to tution. *serious tone*

Tseruey: *serious tone* did you bring scissors?

Celest: *huh?* why need scissors... what scissors...? *???* *very puzzled*

*lags... one thousand... two thousand.. three thousand*....

celest: TSERUEY!!!!!! *feels like walking far far from her*

LOL. joke of the day.. *scissors* to *CUT through the park*!!!

May i present to you.. the wang wang advertisement.. featuring TSERUEY who *ahem* gave me some lame ending for the day (as above) =p

Anna (with the super act cool look) and Tseruey =p

Erm i was supposed to look disgusted at my unglam nasi lemak.

Power Ranger!!! *brown ranger* =pP haha... Ms SakEeNa...

This is called craziness after a day of work. =)