*repair in progress*

*repair in progress*
the person is currently unavailable
cos she pon school.and stayed home and rest.
yupyup,i'm not supposed to get stressed as the doctor says.
because when i'm stressed i dont feel like eating! or i eat and puke!
so everyone repeat after me "i'm okay i'm okay i'm okay"
LOl. its became a usual routine to do that every morning anyway.
going to the cardioloist later.. to do my yearly check up.
mm.. i wonder if the doctor can find my heart this trip.
LOL. maybe he tries to listen and instead of double heartbeat he hears noNE!
heh. he's the heart doctor. hes' supposed to help me anyway.
maybe after the trip to the doctor i will at least know where is my heart
mm.. i can still crap. thats good.
yupyup. definitely need this day off.. a day off to rest.
LOL. i knew from the start.. fairytales doesnt exists. isnt that y john made this blog? =p
mm.. i really cant stick around and dwell..
because when u dwell u stay on the same spot. and walk in circles.
walk and walk and walk.. theres still no end..
focus...focus...focus...
i thought of why God did this... maybe..
He wanted to slap me awake.. =) he knows i'm dwelling...
guess he sent 3 ke ai ppl to "whack" me up.. poP up my bubble
so that i'm supposed to repair it up to be more... invincible.. right?
the nxt time anyone use a BIG knife the pop it also wouldnt break!
mm.. i suddenly thought of Ming Xuan.. so i went to take his book and read again.

"sometimes we are disheartened and wonder if our prayers are answered.. always trust that God knows our needs and our prayer fits into a bigger plan in His timing"
~ Ong Ming Xuan

mmm.. dearly misses him. but still even his book gives encouragements.
think about it.. he fought with cancer right to then end.. with God.
didnt i see how He made his life easier despite the painS?
how can i not trust God? He is there.
another quote
"You may not know where life's road will lead you but keep moving. God is walking wih you"

yupyup.
*repairs in progress* meanwhile...
please understand this little dumb girl for her mood swings..
mmm... why is life so complicated..
i love my blog song =D