....i declare tired. had a long day.. and i know my mood did not get better. its one of the times i didnt really bother hiding my mood. by the end of moe excel fest and invest prac i was already half zombified. just tired, fustruated, troubled at Goodness i dont know what.. its just the u know something is troubling u but u dont know what. i didnt bother to smile much already by the end of the day. too tired. just when i was walking home.. jun hao's message came in.. of all time.. of all momment.. "Never say u're happy when u're sad,never say u're fine when u're not,never say u feel gd when u feel bad...* what a timely message..i just did all of above. sometimes his daily smses seem to come at the right time..mm..i still felt the same though. i just felt like throwing my bag..just felt like throwing my tandrum to the aIR,shouting at the air, just suddenly felt like going to my old house there to sit the swing.. yah.. i used to go there whenever i'm feeling down.. den i'll swing suPer high sUper hard hoping to feel better after that. nah. it was late. i dragged myself home with a super aching headache, fustration, hunger.. irritation..just stopping myself from swearing only...this is the start.. i know.. its just the start. its going to be a long week ahead.. and i know i should go through this myself..beginning to think i should isolate for a week. i didnt feel like replying smses. its not cos i dont want to its just i dont want to be mean. i know that with a mood like that i'm just going to rant and rant and rant...i did hope you'll be there.. but i just .. didn't feel ranting at u.. yeah..guess i just pretended as much as possible that i was fine.. i never did believe the ability to influence anyone ba.. maybe thats y i dont try to say anything even though i'm quite tempted to. took this survey today.. results was celestine had high people smart percentage but low myself smart. maybe that explains why i rather keep things to myself rather than saying? i'm in a super lousy mood.. i really wonder what would make this feel better..dont feel like talking to anyone dont feel like going for invest prac tml..dont feel like gg moe excel fest.. maybe its that splitting headache that is influencing me..(dont worry la.. judging from ben ren character tomorrow i'll still go looking alright). i know i can easily find lunch buddies to cheer me up..its not that u cant cheer me.. u're probably the best person to.. but i guess all the more i feel the hesistance to ask u to do so.. rah..its true lah.. its hard to start relying on something.. for the fear that one day i'll be over reliant.. maybe that creates the fear..yeah..independent. i thought i've debated and concluded myself on that? hai si jue de yi ge ren ku.. hao guo da rao bie ren.. =X sigh. john gg dota.. ah gong.. hopefully should be free tomorrow or not..mm.. once again..reliant on buddies' crap.. to stay a little happier..nah..i guess.. for once i should try to calm down myself.. go Interact and rant at the air aka san xing somewhere..feel like taking a bball find a court and just shoot non-stop..yeah..used to do that.. b4 going for moe excel and invest prac again tomorrow bah.. another long day..i'm feeling better ler.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to BADAK HIPPO HEHEBEI MA IVAN~ hehe brother... hope u liked the surprised we plan for u today.. u was touched yah?
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