LOL. i'm tired of life =D nah. its just a random statement. ever wake up daily fighting with ur own emotions. damn tiring. its like your mind just quarrels with one another. its really tiring..hah..everyday has became a "fight negative thoughts" day. no motivation.. or just to tired to preoccupy my mind with one. heh. rashes are poPing up. doctor says its stress~ i cant say much bout that. u cant make me fight stressed when i'm already fighting myself =D finally chatted with xian. thanks for the card in the locker. brightened up whatever left of my day. yup. nowadays i seldom bother hiding the fact of being distracted. or maybe lack the ability to. Shao wei reminded me.. i remember saying i'm always a kai xin guo..always happy go lucky..where did i lose that to...lessons + remedials are filling my days.. but still the lack of motivation factor. mm.. the whole thing is so ironical. serious! even thinking it out loud makes me feel dumb.. i dont seem to feel God.. through my prayers.. for once.. but as they always say..theres always a purpose. but before my left mind destroy my right mind or vice versa.. i pray i'll be enlightened. recently been walking home frm school.yeah. usually only do it when i'm sad. praying that it would rain while i walk.. walking in the rain makes me feel better~ walked hm today.. distractedly.. walked pass the coffee shop.. suddenly this kuku bunch of SECONDARY SCHOOL GUYS.. listen carefully its SEC SCHOOL.. they tried to ka jiao me. make funny noises den call me den still say dono what "ni ma.." or some crap. wah. i was quite scared that i just walked on. but seriously i would had turned around diao them and say. haLLO I"M OLDER THAN U~ *flash my ez link* i'm 18~! rah. get a life. i never knew there was such people still existing in Singapore. i thought only olden day had. kuku bunch of teck whye sec kiDS! sigh.yi xin and zavier said i look pale.. i ate my breakfast yesterday and puked it out. i ate popiah the day before and puked it toO! not that i did it on purpose.. it disgustingly came out of my mouth. i think i'm stressed. =)but all in all i must say i'm a good faker~ =D because i can still fake fine! its a hard skill k~!ha.. tired lah. dont know when i can last until.. also dont know what happen when one side of my brain defeated the other. i hope its the victorious side that win. because one wrong move.. .. .. k la. i treat that things are getting better because even though 5 days straight of water but the frequency has been getting lesser.. heh i can only say rao le yi quan i'm back as square 1.. same as 3 years ago.. the day i told myself i wouldnt let myself cry easily ever again. LOL what happened this time girl.. =D
nice shouting song.

The Other Way
Weezer

I wan't to help you
but i don't know how
i wan't to soothe you
but i can't speak out
i have many fears
about rejection
i have many memories of pain
i have always been a bit too shy
so i'll turn and look the other way

[chorus:]
other way
other way
i will turn and look the other way

i wan't to hold you
but i am afraid
i wan't to touch you
but i'm not that way
i have many doubts about my motives
i have many fears about my breed
i have always hurt the women i love
so i'll turn and look the other way

[chorus:]
other way
other way
i will turn and look the other way

[guitar solo]

i have many doubts about my motives
i have many fears about my breed
i have always hurt the women i love
so i'll turn and look the other way

[chorus:]
other way
other way
i will turn and look the other way
other way
other way
i will turn and look the other way
other way
other way
i will turn and look the other way
other way
other way
other way
other way. (wayyyy)