Thanksgiving Post

Have been slightly busier going out and stuff after the TNG camp but i decided to blog down some of my thanksgiving and reflections.

Firstly, I thank GOD for opening my eyes and heart for the youth. I guess while i shuttled between the group and org com, i still thank GOD for allowing me to spend most my time with the youth in my group and hanging out with them. There was a long session where i had the opportunity to pray and share with a few youth. It opened my heart and eyes to see that these youth needed someone to pray and guide them. Therefore, i would say the TNG camp definitely opened my eyes and give me great anticipation with the changes that the youth ministry is going to have.


Secondly, I thank GOD for good grades. I wouldnt deny that sem and sem again i look at my grades and tell GOD how undeserving i think i am to get such good grades. I am only reminded that it is only by HIS grace that my grades are well. Although it still didnt reach my 4.5 gpa that i was aiming to target, but i recognise that what i have is GOD given and is defintely better.

So, THANK GOD for my 4.39 (although my grades seem to increase at a constant rate of 0.02 each sem) haha.. =)

Thank GOD for some catchups with su xian, hao, wanmei, edi... just lacking the fArt fam..

My Thanksgiving this month of December.

....In memories....

I write this in memory and in reflection of a life that now lives in our memory but definitely taught us some things....

This was what kept going through my mind at mandai...

In life we get to cross our path with someone just for that moment, but we often fail to realise the importance of sharing the gospel...

At that moment i felt the need to share.. because..
if only he had a chance to respond to u...
If only someone asked him that question...

It may not be our mission to bring him to Christ but...
at least share and ask...

God, i was reminded so so so reminded to share and not regret the next time or rather each time...

well, in loving memories..(as i wrote in the book)
It has been fun:

Beating NIE orientation Queue for us
Virtual NIE tour
Attending all our Friday morning lectures
East Coast Park

and this is how i remember u best by how u communicate with Amanda ..

But i know for sure...

GOD is still good through it all..

God is our Healer

Ming Xuan...The first person who taught me what was death was you and i thought of you... You taught me what was it like to lose a friend but I know someday God will let us meet once again. But most importantly God taught me how to overcome it and remember u still.

Today I grief the lost of another it's a very unreal feel but this time God teach ppl to grow stronger thru u alone.u have a glorious plan for her so please teach her grow herand empower her. Though this trip I don't know where this friend of mine is heading, I just pray for grace and mercy upon Him...

God is our Healer

The first person who taught me what was death was you and i thought of you... You taught me what was it like to lose a friend but I know someday God will let us meet once again. But most importantly God taught me how to overcome it and remember u still.

Today I grief the lost of another it's a very unreal feel but this time God teach ppl to grow stronger thru u alone.u have a glorious plan for her so please teach her grow herand empower her. Though this trip I don't know where this friend of mine is heading, I just pray for grace and mercy upon Him...

Jesus take the Wheel (not the steering wheel)

=) I was really reminded again and again....
Jesus take the wheel of my life... because i cant do this on my own..
I know i have been living my life on my own this sem..
taking my wheel in my own hand..
Trying to score good grades with my own power..
for my own purpose and my own glory...
that is so so so so so selfish to get caught up in my own life.
WHERE is GOD?

was reminded to let go.. let go and let GOD take charge.

So, here's a reminding abstract of this song...

one more week to end of school.. still not too late to let GOD take charge.. right?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qT4f9gfCJvk
JESUS take the wheel....

I've been living my life

I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on

Oh Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, ooh

The Next Generation

Reminded during today's sermon by this inspiring video.

The Question is: In ten years, Would you have make a difference?

Reminded the importance of "Nurturing The Next Generation. =)"

...

Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.

Hate being confused about GOD's standard...
And this is all the bible says.
so vague.
If all is vainity
we should just eat bread daily and any other food should be vainity isnt it.
we should just have one entertainment and the rest are vainity right.
we should just have the basic needs and the rest are vainity right.
where should we stop.
where is the line.
okay.. i'm being negative here.

To tell him that YOU love him

Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away

Chorus:
So maybe this time
I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear
is tearin' at my words
What am I so afraid of?
'Cause here I go again
Talkin' 'bout the rain
And mullin' over things
that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance
to tell him that You love Him

But here I go again
Here I go again

Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Chorus:

But here I go again
Here I go, here I go

Chorus:

This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him

You love him, You love him
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard?

Yup. Maybe this time... i'll speak your Words of Life.
What am i so afraid of?

How do you preach the gospel in chinese and hokkien or even bring up the gospel to someone you've never ever talked about the gospel to? or maybe never even been extremely close to your whole life? yet you know you have limited time left to at least let him hear and know of the gospel once.. at least once.. and you know that you have done at least your best for GOD.

God, give me the wisdom to preach the gospel to my grandfather though i dont know how.
Lord, give him the time to listen..

(oh oh oh oh..... oh oh oh OH) =p

Today is the day..
YOu have made...
i will rejoice and be glad in it.....
(oh oh oh oh).....(oh oh oh oh)

watch it =p
we sang this song during worship today...
i sooooo have it stuck in my head...

Indeed GOD, rejoice and be glad in today and not worry about tomorrow =p

BECAUSE i trust in what you say! (oh oh oh oh).....

I Stand in Awe of You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCacla77PoY

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful of comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp you infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above


And I stand, I stand in awe of you
I stand, I stand in awe of you
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of you.

These are the words i have for GOD...
Results are out today....
I stand in awe of my Holy GOD, in awe of HIS grace upon me.

my grades i would say are not bad... 4.37, an improve from 4.33...
my initial reaction was still disappointed!!
ya! (proving that human wants are really never enough)

but after a while i start to give thanks and realised that i stand in awe of a holy GOD who blessed me although i neglected HIM for near a semester..
as i reflected upon how GOD was so small this semester as i was constantly "distracted",
yet GOD in His mavellous grace and infinite wisdom showered His grace upon me and maintained my grades.. i can never understand GOD's blessings...

i thank GOD.. and i PRAISE GOD.. and i say...

I stand in awe of your grace upon an unworthy servant..

THANK AND PRAISE BE TO GOD for my grades..

Amen =)

Will Jesus Find us Watching?

Exams ended!
Managed to catch a movie : Knowing.it was in fact a very remindful movie...
reminded me whether when end times come will i be caught doing something displeasing to GOD?
Would i be watching for His coming or would i be caught earning more money?
or even in the midst of sin?

Matthew 25:1-13

Will we be caught not watching(v.13) like the bride in the parable?

This reminded me of a hymn i remember during church camp in sec sch...

http://nethymnal.org/htm/w/i/willjesu.htm

When Jesus comes to reward His servants,'
Whether it be noon or night,
Faithful to Him will He find us watching,
With our lamps all trimmed and bright?

Refrain

O can we say we are ready, brother?
Ready for the soul’s bright home?
Say, will He find you and me still watching,Waiting, waiting when the Lord shall come?
If, at the dawn of the early morning,
He shall call us one by one,
When to the Lord we restore our talents,
Will He answer thee—“Well done”?

Refrain

Have we been true to the trust He left us?
Do we seek to do our best?
If in our hearts there is naught condemns us,
We shall have a glorious rest.

Refrain

Blessèd are those whom the Lord finds watching,
In His glory they shall share;
If He shall come at the dawn or midnight,
Will He find us watching there?

Refrain

Indeed blessed are those who the LORD finds watching... are we watching for the LORD?
"Knowing" was indeed a remindful movie of LORD's second coming.. i'm looking forward to see JESUS tell me "well done good and faithful servant"

bros and sis, wait and watch upon Him.

GOD's love

LOVE.

This is an amazing word. Over the past weeks, GOD taught me so much about this word "love". LOVE is such a powerful word from GOD. I have learnt to grow to love ppl around me GOD's way.

Can we fanthom such great unconditional love?
Can we even understand HOW GREAT is His love?

Today i stand in awe of GOD's love because i know i am not worthy of that love.. but yet GOD gave me that love. Can you imagine the patience He as towards me? Seeing me sin again and again and again against Him but yet HE LOVES ME!
No human can do that! seeing someone so dear sin and sin and sin and sin and sin again.. but HE response in LOVE.
Isnt His dictionary of "LOVE" sooooooooo great?

I know GOD is growing me this season.. because i've been starting to see Him work and mould me and show me my inadequacy.
I am excited to let Him grow me.

I reflected upon this "LOVE" and i realised i want to be like GOD.
I want to be like Him to love all around me with that UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and Patience.
I am unable to achieve perfect love but i strive to grow to be like Him.

I ask myself what is it to give Unconditional love?

Think along with me here... UNCONDITIONED !! means no matter how much someone hurts you or do not appreciate your love, you still LOVE.

I want to learn to be christ like.

This week towards easter. i know GOD is telling me to love my friends, family and even "enemies" with LOVE.

Went back to my previous church to attend an easter Cantala.. whoo..
i must say i really miss hymns..
the worship style is definitely different from covenant and i know i felt less "stressed" in a way. I guess i understood the meaning of "seat-warming" worship .. it felt really good to be back in that worship =p I started to wonder what convicted me that covenant was the convicted church that i am sure GOD called me to.. haha. i guess my answers are still in the midst of formulating. =)

Nevertheless, the theme of their easter was "no greater love"
it was such a wonderful musical presentation of the everlasting gospel (Matthew).

i was reminded indeed! there is NO GREATER LOVE that GOD's.

AMEN.

Friends.....

Times like this I'm upset because you feel like they missed u out... Or maybe just no longer as important to them..or maybe It's just me and I'm not supposed to feel upset at it. Sometimes I really think it's because they are close and dear to your heart that's why I'm upset..because I know I might had drop most things to trade time to be with them... If only they asked....

I struggle to remind myself to put this upset aside.
That's for my dear friends.
They're constantly on my mind and prayers...
I wonder if I'm actually on theirs....
Times like this you get disillusioned...
And I think I'm not on theirs....

Divine Exchange (blog song)

My heart is captivated Lord, by You alone
captured by the awesomeness of You alone
melted by the grace and mercy You have shown
I stand in wonder I reach to you the one who make the blind can see
who break the chains of sickness with authority
restoring of what was broken
so we may fly again

I live to worship you
I breathe to worship to you
all of my days, your face I'll seek

For as I worship you
You lead me to that place
To that place of divine exchange

This is a love song.
When does your heart gets so captivated over someone?
When you come to a point and say you live for someone, breathe for someone?
When do you seek some's face all your days?

It's a love song to GOD.
As the chorale sang this song, indeed i felt GOD's presence. I just knew GOD was with the congregation. From the stage, i can see people tearing. That alone was an amazing sight. To know that GOD's love can move and touch us so much. We are all people melted my His grace and mercy alone. Yes Lord, lead me to the place of divine exchange.

This was my great comfort admist another busy hurdle crossed.

God, I love you.

Count your blessings

Counted my blessings admist tough times.

1) Flowers to cheer the week =)

2) Sweets to destress...

3) A crappy call from "sister"

4) An e-mail from Yah Ting

5) A decent pass admist expecting the worst form my screw up test.

6) Full marks for Maths was an encouragement.

7) Smses/ messages from council friends

8) Outing with Hehe fam.

I need to learn to count my blessings =)

Fustruration

Celestine is fustrated and realised her tendency to blame GOD first when anything happens.

This week just doesnt seem to get better.
screwed up el test
Stressed up about assignment
stressed up for test
negative thoughts
busyness
and

God adds one more on my list.

wallet disappears in church.
Just when i was doing my membership interview.
Just when i replied i want to settle in covenant because it has a fabulous community.
then next thing i know i cant find that wallet that i brought in to the membership baptism interview room.
I cant help but to ponder what this tells me about that fabulous community i just commented on.

Fustruated at what GOD throws at me all at once.
A complaining heart blaming GOD non stop.

and it happens Just after i calmed down my week when i was worshipping
i reminded myself...crap happens but

"better is one day in your courts than thousand elsewhere"

God sustain please.

7 random things i struggle

1) The unsent sms in my hp drafts.
2) My friends arent easy to meet up today and they mostly dont believe me today.
3) The essay and the test due on Monday
4) Maybe Edi was right when he said "birthdays are just another day" im starting to believe that special festives arent special, they're just another day in your calandar
5) Thinking which part of Singapore i can hide at to study.
6) Wondering why i cant even find someone to go out for dinner.
7) Baptism/Membership interview on Sunday when my heart isnt rested

depressing.... depressing...
stressed... stressed...

Run to God

Certain things GOD surfaces that tugs your heart
that causes you to struggle inside...
how do most people react to it?

I realised the immediate reaction i had.. to run away from GOD.
He has been reminding me about certain things that i havent been quieting my heart to hear.
Having my first reaction to run away from GOD's plan.

I remember Kat's story of how letting GOD take control and surrending is to learn to surrender your own vision and die to self and let GOD totally take control. I think it's a reminder for me that indeed i may thought GOD was leading me that way but maybe He is teaching me to surrender my own vision to Him before He can work fully. Though now i'm stuck in a limbo of not really knowing what i can do or what i can do or what i should do, whats my role, whats my calling, with the initial reaction of just serving by going thru the motions or "running away" from His calling by just not doing anything or even the reluctance inside to serve because i dont know how...

but i just want to remind all of us and remind esp myself

to press on in His vision of leading..
not to have my own perspective or vision but His
to serve whole heartedly and not half heartedly
to just press on to love and encourage bros and sis
regardless of anything else..
God will reveal His calling in HIS TIME.

Reminded not to run from HIS purpose..
Run to GOD...

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

Therefore, two things i run to GOD to seek..
1) cg
2) practicum school

Lead me Lord

The song that chorale is learning...
i remember i was humming it to myself admist the busyness.
Really remindful lyrics.

Lead me Lord....

...celebrations..

I cant really put a finger into this...

"Dont really feel the CNY mood.."
"Dont really feel the celebration"
never the less...
feeling quite happy =)
i think cny tidbits make me high =p

Just cant wait to catch up with some of my dear friends...

Life been happening at relatively quick pace.. =p
too fast to catch ....

just something cute from my lecture to share =p

First day of School =)

Celestine is ready to rock this sem for GOD.

hehe... what a funny starting line right =p
yupyup felt very on fire on my first day of school.
praying this passion wouldnt falter.

Started school today with a great day...
i'm thankful for GOD blessing me with a bunch of ppl to study and hang out with in NIE.
Today we had our random-unplanned-in-advance outing with amanda,andrea,sukching,ben,desmond,sheryl...with jason driving us and dropping us off. =) so thankful to start the sem of knowing that we'll have one another to mug and destress with =) yupyup. tooo bad no one brought a cam since we didnt expect an outing.
Thanks for friends and encouragement...
I so feel like starting to study now =P
reminding myself to thank GOD and study for HIS glory.

=) FIrst confirmed outing for my birthday celebrations =)
28th Jan night... NIE friends =)

*quite excited for the sem ahead*

Hols

Too much happenings to update in this one month plus holiday.
i am definitely satisfied with the break i had.
So much to update (slowly in time to come)

Just have to say.. i'm glad to meet up with almost everyone i intended to!

lunch buddies
fartty fam
dota gang
edi, chun
classmates!!
hehe fam
WALLA!!!
church bros and sis
Yin Hou, Mei Yi, Sam, Ser Xing
hui, heng
Matthew

now... just left a few i havent meet to make my hols a perfect one!!

-- xiAN ! gene..! junhao..! JiaXin!

think thats bout there...

=) school starts lo... =)

Hols

Too much happenings to update in this one month plus holiday.
i am definitely satisfied with the break i had.
So much to update (slowly in time to come)

Just have to say.. i'm glad to meet up with almost everyone i intended to!

lunch buddies
fartty fam
dota gang
edi, chun
classmates!!
hehe fam
WALLA!!!
church bros and sis
Yin Hou, Mei Yi, Sam, Ser Xing
hui, heng
Matthew

now... just left a few i havent meet to make my hols a perfect one!!

-- xiAN ! gene..! junhao..! JiaXin!

think thats bout there...

=) school starts lo... =)