Run to God

Certain things GOD surfaces that tugs your heart
that causes you to struggle inside...
how do most people react to it?

I realised the immediate reaction i had.. to run away from GOD.
He has been reminding me about certain things that i havent been quieting my heart to hear.
Having my first reaction to run away from GOD's plan.

I remember Kat's story of how letting GOD take control and surrending is to learn to surrender your own vision and die to self and let GOD totally take control. I think it's a reminder for me that indeed i may thought GOD was leading me that way but maybe He is teaching me to surrender my own vision to Him before He can work fully. Though now i'm stuck in a limbo of not really knowing what i can do or what i can do or what i should do, whats my role, whats my calling, with the initial reaction of just serving by going thru the motions or "running away" from His calling by just not doing anything or even the reluctance inside to serve because i dont know how...

but i just want to remind all of us and remind esp myself

to press on in His vision of leading..
not to have my own perspective or vision but His
to serve whole heartedly and not half heartedly
to just press on to love and encourage bros and sis
regardless of anything else..
God will reveal His calling in HIS TIME.

Reminded not to run from HIS purpose..
Run to GOD...

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

Therefore, two things i run to GOD to seek..
1) cg
2) practicum school