*sigh* sigh* sigh* ... i'm feeling a little troubled. cant describe the feeling.. *bah* *roar* =X but i want to thank fel biao jie for that big box of honey stars. =) loved it. want to thank people who put the smile back on my face. yupyup. thank u. sigh. this doesnt change the fact that i am troubled. the dream was a pre requisit to all this is it? maybe... it was a bad dream. and a bad wkend. bah.. =X why why whY? *mixed feelings*... sigh i wasted a saturday. *roar* shouldnt had been this way. but we spent the whole day at ikea. pissed at myself for wasting today. *bah* den again. we bought most of the furnitures today. but still.. i dont like the idea of wasting today.. i purposely drank 2over cups of coffee today.. yes. its on purpose. i'm not going to sleep early tonight. i'm punishing myself! yup. who cares bout that stupid headache that bugged me for a week.. i'm ignoring u.. who cares !! 11.33pm.. where are you..where are u... =X i'm not in a good mood.. cheer me up can... *nah* i know its not ur fault, u didnt know i'm in a bad mood.*roAr* i hate myself for wasting the long weekend. and not understanding all the economics concept. argh.. why cant u be smarter.. *baH*...thank God for blessing me still.. thank God. saw this one way sign at this carpark. yup.. reminds me of the song One way. anyway, sorry serxing. i ps u again. sigh. again. sorry. nxt wk k? Eugene jia you study k? connie i reply ur letter by nxt wk k? missu. *...feel like chatting to someone..* but i know i'll hate myself for wasting the time again. just like how i'm wasting time now! roar. i'm out of here. to study through the night. i dont care!!

random!

hmm... just dropped by. i knew this week was going to be taxing. i just never knew it was going to be this hard. yup. i had been having this troBbing irritating headache. its bugging me. *sigh*... i cant do my homework like that, i cant concentrate during maths lessons! *baH* its irritating. =( i had a dream last night. it was just quite sad i think. i cant really remember what. but i remember i woke up feeling sad. =X sigh. just chucking all these aside... yup =X sad. mm.. i went out to eat with karmun,fel,john,joseph,lishi,ahgong,edwaRD,daddy. mm.. yup! very fulL! we ate pizza hut! hee.. yupyup. to john... cheer up wor.. dont "one heart"(worry) so much but must actions to study! hee.. to fel, jiayou!dont cry! to mummy thanks for the postcard and *hugs* cheer up! to myself.. i hope the headache leaves me alone and not bug me to day 4!! *prays* thanks everyone who made my day. thanks ah gong for his laME jokes again ah. =pP over and out. oh ya.. interviews are over! jiayou everyone!

05S12

http://www16.rockyou.com/viewslideshow.php?instanceid=15722913
to my dearest 05s12.. thanks for everything. really love u bunch of ppl.
hee.. i've blog in our blog. something really mm.. sentimental but i just felt like telling these to u all. yupyup. go check our class blog out! www.zerofivestwelve.blogspot.com

hee.. was looking thru my photos. think this is cute! 05A02 (1st 3mths) teCKYEN!!!
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*stressed*

who say stressed was like desserts, it was jus desserts spelt backwards. sigh. i feel stressed. looking forward to the nxt wk of stressed wk. i mean what can i say when i'm in ALL subjects remedial right? i'm tired. =X stressed. tired. stressed. dont want to get involved in ANY thing else. mm.. been spending my breaks mugging. muG.mug. just talked to mingjie.mm.. i think he's quite motivational. always talk to him will feel motivated yet guilty yet sensible. dont understand what i say righT? i mean, he's right that i want to study yet sometimes really half-hearted. its right that doing homework is nOT studying. lOLX. yup. minG jie Thanks anyway. really very motivational. i'm going to studY after this. had a chat with edward a few days ago too. it was a *reality check*.. coming from edward. this advice was really .. mm.. it set me thinking to a large extent. just this sudden realisation.. maybe all along.. he was right.. i'm just naive is it? well he really made me ponder over what he said. for a really long time.. really lonG. Thanks edward for tat. mm.. he's going to leave for a poly soon =( really will miss him and his crap. but still.. i know, jia you! u can do it! u will exceL! Few days ago its Eugene's birthday. gave him something small yet hopefully meaningful. Happy birthday Eugene! Today is Serene's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! i bought her a cake~ =) tomorrow is my dad's birthday. yup. today after exco meeting i went to meet my sister in town! ya.. its wierd wearing sch u to town on friday night. anyway i met chun gim again! mm.. *stress* =X nxt tuesday spa. nxt mon and tues 6-7.30pm burn. its going to be a long monday tuesday and wednesday.... God bless me with strength to go on... =X God bless me with many friends to push and motivate me on. God blessED me with super duper great bunch of EXCos. now.. back to study.

my funKy rOom coLour (partial)
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guess who's this walking piOneer lor *cough* kar muN *cough*
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piOneeR dustbiNs at IKEA
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hee.. crappy us taking the photo at the same spoT(took us nearly 30 over shots i think)
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Hey! hai.. in a big dilema now.. Tomorrow's Good Friday. i cant decide where to go..
look at this..
Apr 16 (Sun)
6:30 am: Sunrise Service, Venue: Jurong Hill (Combined English and Mandarin)
Apr 16 (Sun)
10 am: Easter Sunday Service
This really brings back memories. Sunrise service! part of me really want to go for it. but i really had distanced from the church friends there.. not that i cant go for it myself. but.. actually i also dont know wads my concern. =X but, just that.. part of me really want to go back to Calvary Jurong and see. but still at the back of my mind several contentions pulling me back! how how.. mm.. maybe i'll go for Alvin's church (church of our saviour). but i still feel wierd. God guide me. i know i've backslided horribly. i kind of miss last year's easter sunday. =X i miss the exchange of chocolates with church friends. somehow this year i had not much christian friends standing by me. mm.. i used to had so many in 04 unzip! matthew, weiyang, even chinghong, meiyi, edi,joce...yup. den i guess coming to a jc made me backslide. besides having alvin, zhao and some others.. but just dont really get the same feeling though. mm.. oh well.
today had long lessons. its really funny how hyperactive i had been todayheh. i couldnt sleep in lessons! even could disturb serene to wake up! =pP after school went council rm slack for while. fel biao jie was in a bad mood cos she got back pw results. but we managed to cheer her up =) heh.. after that (after being ps by guAng and everyone else) john me fel and helmi went to bpp to eat together. lol. *bright* *bright* .. anyway that Ben naI naI john keep making me laugh non stop in yoshinoya.. diao.. i got choked laughing on my food. LOL. but i love laughing. but very easy cramp like that. anyway, everyone i must tell u this! JOHN U BROKE UR NO DOTA FEAT AND PLAYED DOTA! sad leh.. u abstinance for 3 wks den left one more wk and u had to try ur hero.. LOL!!! cough. FUNNY! heh.. yupyup. and after that fel and helmi left ler den we went to buy clip and my mum's and sis's snacks. hE keeP complaining laaa. cos we met alot of pioneers and it looked a bit wrong seeing us together! *baH* heh.. spoil his chances of getting xiao mei meis lor.. sorry neh! heh. TOO BAD! oh well. reached home and had a good sleep. =) talked to raf and steven~! mm.. anyway got a2 for pW! ooo afiq weijing spencer rei.. WE ROCK! =D cannot believe how we crap through.

~ Su Xian raintrees and I ~
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Xian me and min in my new roOm
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beautiful and missed raintrees
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Su xian and i loVed pulling raintrees!~ pri school hoBby =pP
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hee.. a pri school artwork i kept till noW!
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A page of my reflections in my pri school handbook~ crap~!!
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Hey! i moved house! that explains my disappearance for so long =) shall make this short since i want to go off and study! yup. just want to thank soon leng for that chit chat we had on friday and ming jie for his study methods! all so motivational wor. and to my 2 small cousions who crap up my weekend with their interesting secret *cough* praise the Lord. and also su xian and min for spending sunday together bringing back so much memories! and for seeing jin hui too! jin hui you changed aloT!!! heh also, GENTRY is back!!! heh steven just called me! going to meet up with them soon. whoo... gentry sounds different ler. excited to meet them anyway. okay. better spend time studying! jia you! thanks everyone for the motivation! looking forward to meet jin hui zi chun jiamin su xian and hopefully SHUheng toO!! =) lao pA! oh well.. yup yup!

memories

walk down memory lane>
i met celeste and rona today! we went for lunch and went back to celeste's old house at cashew heights. old, cuz she just moved. or rather, in the process. i haven't been to her hse in a very long time! and we visited the rain trees. our beloved rain trees. the ones that i used to pluck leaves from.her hse was almost empty, but it's so familiar, so full of memories!i realised that celeste is VERY VERY good at keeping stuff. she keeps EVERYTHING la! all the way back from pri sch! we went over to her new hse at maysprings. and she was showing us things from pri sch to sec sch. autograph books, photos, the file we got on the last day of p6 with all the papers still inside, the blue crystals we made tgt during sec 2 or 3 ETC. i was amazed lar. it was fun going thru all the stuff and talking bout things tt happened many years ago. =)
Hey hey... this is just an extract from su xian's blog. i'm too lazy to type. and i really thought her memories were just how my memories were. Su xian! i love u loads. The raintree will always be missed by us! and also the swing the stars the laughters we had there. yup. our prischool memories each and every single one we had over at cashew heights is deeply etched in my heart. Though we're often busy and seldom meet but u're always my bestest pal! oo.. all those birthday memories.. so ke ai. ah.. no words can describe our memories. =) yup! anyway, i really can keep. each and every letter by su xian jiamin and many others, the blue crystal too!!and alot of things. hee.. cant bear to throw these memories away ma. miss u loads xian and min! =) great day i had *hugs*

baCk~

hey.. i'm back. yup. guess whaT? if i didnt blog for sO long. probably because i had bAd times =) yup. results.. everything. its really quite bad. wasnt really in a good mood the past few days. i must say thanks to sOonleng daddy for the concerned smses and ah ma for the postcard and earrings. =) and yup.. biao jie sorry for pMs ing u and alsO not calling u back on timE(blame johN =pP nah actually its i didnt hang up fast enough) ! ha... yup. many others too. oh well. i really have to buck up. no more slackings. back to reality. much things had happened since i blog. well, the council trip to ikea for an example~ heh. it was crap and fun. well. and also the trip to sentosa that i just posted pics and not elaborate on! oh well, its really fun trip. been really busy. trying to gain back my confidence and motivation after common test. so that i can go on furthur! but it really seems hard. i really feel kinda demoralised. maybe yi xin was right. i should had accepted her offer of a pep talk with mr yeo. but i just waved it off saying i would be fine myself. oh well. me and my stubborness. but i guess.. i knew doing it alone was a little hard. after all u cant expect me to look into the mirror and say "u can do it!" (well, i actually really can do that --) oh wait.. i suddenly remembered something really important.. here goes..
Yes! I had remembered almost a year ago, i had mentioned that i would use perfect English in my blog! So, Ms Chong had just mentioned to us that she wanted to see intellectual "orgasm" in class. On top of that she wants us to read books and write a short write-up of it in perfect English either in our blog, full-scapt or other forms. Anyway, here i am trying to use English that is as perfect as possible! I'll really try to do this. Hopefully, this would be able to improve my lousy GP. My blog seem really formal now! Anyway, just to introduce the book that i'm reading. Its a novel by Nicholas Sparks and its titled "True Believer". I'm currently only halfway through this book. I had always liked to read Nicholas Sparks book especially since the first book "A Walk to Remember" in which Yeu Ai had introduced to me to read! yup! I had been really busy recently. Firstly, i had been busy trying to set up my new room. *grin* I actually chose the colour blue and orange in conjunction with a bed colour of blue and beige and my black piano. I really like the orange portion of the wall but was quite hesitant about the pale blue portion! Although i really do love the view of my bedroom. Looking out of the FULL LENGTH window in my room allow me to stare into a very beautiful night sky (with stars! and moOn and clouDs) =) Of course, i miss the raintree downstairs! Su Xian says that she'll come over to my house this weekend so that we could take picture with that poOr raintree (that we used to bare it by pulling ALL the leaves off and throw upwards) in Primary school. =) Thinking back, it really reminds me of the good old days. HA! the boys toilet *cough* mm.. shh.. suxian miSs u. Well, just another chat with Pris today. I really think she's quite pressed in between everyone. But out of curiousity i just had to ask to sooth my rather disturbed mind. I'm not sure if knowing is more soothing or it is actually just stopping me from hidding. *ahh* I know. I'm always not willing to face reality. That's mE! mm.. impossible. i wouldnt let any accidents happen! nO way.. no accidents no accidents.. no way. *self-denial state* As always. =X hoW hoW hoW? i'm losing faith in myself anyway. be it studies or others. i just agree in what Dasen's viewpoint bah. i really think Dasen matured alot =) Seriously, sometimes alongside maturity, it brings gloomy feelings. Thats why we said that he really looked gloomy recently. . . Anyway, back to topic. i really dont know what to do. Can't believe it. I got myself into this! =\ Pris is right. i dont think i can do anything. God bless.. i really need to focus on my studies. Besides, I had distance from God. I need to find back that faith, hopefully comes blessings on my studies and of course the determination and maybe most importantly the confidence that i had lost. . . *Thanks everyone for standing by me*

point point point point point point... according to height somEmoRe
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walla guys... toR loR buay sonG...expression..~
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WaLLas aGain..
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ee... look at that wet sandy persOn... eeeek!
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muahaha... ermm toorrrr loRRrrr buayyy songggg... *coughh*
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points points points ... ;)
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Cutesy with miNg wei(our photographer) posing with us!
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aDelainE and i and the pretty sun set
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miCheLLe and i
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Ming Jie And i~ (loOk aT his ..cRaPpy exprEssIon)!
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ProDucT comPleTeD! with MinG jiE poSinG wiTh "iT"
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BuRying JoHn in pRoceSs =)
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coOL bacK vieW huh =pP
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WaLLa oGLs
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PrEttY oGLs =pP
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WaLLA outinG to SentoSa
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