Divine Exchange (blog song)

My heart is captivated Lord, by You alone
captured by the awesomeness of You alone
melted by the grace and mercy You have shown
I stand in wonder I reach to you the one who make the blind can see
who break the chains of sickness with authority
restoring of what was broken
so we may fly again

I live to worship you
I breathe to worship to you
all of my days, your face I'll seek

For as I worship you
You lead me to that place
To that place of divine exchange

This is a love song.
When does your heart gets so captivated over someone?
When you come to a point and say you live for someone, breathe for someone?
When do you seek some's face all your days?

It's a love song to GOD.
As the chorale sang this song, indeed i felt GOD's presence. I just knew GOD was with the congregation. From the stage, i can see people tearing. That alone was an amazing sight. To know that GOD's love can move and touch us so much. We are all people melted my His grace and mercy alone. Yes Lord, lead me to the place of divine exchange.

This was my great comfort admist another busy hurdle crossed.

God, I love you.

Count your blessings

Counted my blessings admist tough times.

1) Flowers to cheer the week =)

2) Sweets to destress...

3) A crappy call from "sister"

4) An e-mail from Yah Ting

5) A decent pass admist expecting the worst form my screw up test.

6) Full marks for Maths was an encouragement.

7) Smses/ messages from council friends

8) Outing with Hehe fam.

I need to learn to count my blessings =)

Fustruration

Celestine is fustrated and realised her tendency to blame GOD first when anything happens.

This week just doesnt seem to get better.
screwed up el test
Stressed up about assignment
stressed up for test
negative thoughts
busyness
and

God adds one more on my list.

wallet disappears in church.
Just when i was doing my membership interview.
Just when i replied i want to settle in covenant because it has a fabulous community.
then next thing i know i cant find that wallet that i brought in to the membership baptism interview room.
I cant help but to ponder what this tells me about that fabulous community i just commented on.

Fustruated at what GOD throws at me all at once.
A complaining heart blaming GOD non stop.

and it happens Just after i calmed down my week when i was worshipping
i reminded myself...crap happens but

"better is one day in your courts than thousand elsewhere"

God sustain please.

7 random things i struggle

1) The unsent sms in my hp drafts.
2) My friends arent easy to meet up today and they mostly dont believe me today.
3) The essay and the test due on Monday
4) Maybe Edi was right when he said "birthdays are just another day" im starting to believe that special festives arent special, they're just another day in your calandar
5) Thinking which part of Singapore i can hide at to study.
6) Wondering why i cant even find someone to go out for dinner.
7) Baptism/Membership interview on Sunday when my heart isnt rested

depressing.... depressing...
stressed... stressed...

Run to God

Certain things GOD surfaces that tugs your heart
that causes you to struggle inside...
how do most people react to it?

I realised the immediate reaction i had.. to run away from GOD.
He has been reminding me about certain things that i havent been quieting my heart to hear.
Having my first reaction to run away from GOD's plan.

I remember Kat's story of how letting GOD take control and surrending is to learn to surrender your own vision and die to self and let GOD totally take control. I think it's a reminder for me that indeed i may thought GOD was leading me that way but maybe He is teaching me to surrender my own vision to Him before He can work fully. Though now i'm stuck in a limbo of not really knowing what i can do or what i can do or what i should do, whats my role, whats my calling, with the initial reaction of just serving by going thru the motions or "running away" from His calling by just not doing anything or even the reluctance inside to serve because i dont know how...

but i just want to remind all of us and remind esp myself

to press on in His vision of leading..
not to have my own perspective or vision but His
to serve whole heartedly and not half heartedly
to just press on to love and encourage bros and sis
regardless of anything else..
God will reveal His calling in HIS TIME.

Reminded not to run from HIS purpose..
Run to GOD...

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

Therefore, two things i run to GOD to seek..
1) cg
2) practicum school

Lead me Lord

The song that chorale is learning...
i remember i was humming it to myself admist the busyness.
Really remindful lyrics.

Lead me Lord....

...celebrations..

I cant really put a finger into this...

"Dont really feel the CNY mood.."
"Dont really feel the celebration"
never the less...
feeling quite happy =)
i think cny tidbits make me high =p

Just cant wait to catch up with some of my dear friends...

Life been happening at relatively quick pace.. =p
too fast to catch ....

just something cute from my lecture to share =p

First day of School =)

Celestine is ready to rock this sem for GOD.

hehe... what a funny starting line right =p
yupyup felt very on fire on my first day of school.
praying this passion wouldnt falter.

Started school today with a great day...
i'm thankful for GOD blessing me with a bunch of ppl to study and hang out with in NIE.
Today we had our random-unplanned-in-advance outing with amanda,andrea,sukching,ben,desmond,sheryl...with jason driving us and dropping us off. =) so thankful to start the sem of knowing that we'll have one another to mug and destress with =) yupyup. tooo bad no one brought a cam since we didnt expect an outing.
Thanks for friends and encouragement...
I so feel like starting to study now =P
reminding myself to thank GOD and study for HIS glory.

=) FIrst confirmed outing for my birthday celebrations =)
28th Jan night... NIE friends =)

*quite excited for the sem ahead*

Hols

Too much happenings to update in this one month plus holiday.
i am definitely satisfied with the break i had.
So much to update (slowly in time to come)

Just have to say.. i'm glad to meet up with almost everyone i intended to!

lunch buddies
fartty fam
dota gang
edi, chun
classmates!!
hehe fam
WALLA!!!
church bros and sis
Yin Hou, Mei Yi, Sam, Ser Xing
hui, heng
Matthew

now... just left a few i havent meet to make my hols a perfect one!!

-- xiAN ! gene..! junhao..! JiaXin!

think thats bout there...

=) school starts lo... =)

Hols

Too much happenings to update in this one month plus holiday.
i am definitely satisfied with the break i had.
So much to update (slowly in time to come)

Just have to say.. i'm glad to meet up with almost everyone i intended to!

lunch buddies
fartty fam
dota gang
edi, chun
classmates!!
hehe fam
WALLA!!!
church bros and sis
Yin Hou, Mei Yi, Sam, Ser Xing
hui, heng
Matthew

now... just left a few i havent meet to make my hols a perfect one!!

-- xiAN ! gene..! junhao..! JiaXin!

think thats bout there...

=) school starts lo... =)