lOOK! its a boxers we saw at town! it can measure =X
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my really *gay*erm.. happy.. daddy.. =X with my handbag!
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Hey!

heh.. had not been updating! i've got so much to update about! well, lets start off my first day of my holidays with a banG~ i went out with lailai ahyi,ah ma,ah guang ah gong,mumMy karmun and daddy Soon leng. we went to town to chill and took sO much crappy pictures!! so stressed up with our tests. hee.. it was a really great chilling sessioN; started off with me getting lost in town again while trying to find cineleisurE! ah...! heh..oh well, though somethings did happen in the midst of the movie while we were watching.. the sms was rather spoiler lah.. but oh well.. i love my "family". they gave me alot of encouragement. especially on the way back the chat with guang yi *thanks ah* feeling much better lerx. the show we watch was date movie.. to john *HIGHLY reCoMmEnDED* why? cos the whole show was so se!! it was so crap, so lame, so se!!! lolx. its just plain funny that we laughed *uncouthly* out loud...*shi tai* heh.. oh well.. that was day one! and let me see.. on sunday i went out to open houses.. nus and smu! ahh.. serxing and i got lost in smu... we walked such a freaking long way that we got so fustrated with the school. hee.. oh well, sorry 05s12 and council ppl who wanted to go open house together! i kind of promise serxing first *hor giRL* i didnt pang seh u! well, came home from open house and heard some stuff happened. oh well.. i really conclude.. in 2 of the things that happened this friday and saturday and sunday.. *somethings are really not worth getting pissed,angry or just sad over* its just really plain waste of our precious resources! heh.. yup! its really totally that way. sometimes when hatred get into oneself.. everthing one do is just so..==; oh well.. *bah* hee.. anyway, i'm really blessed with very very nice "family", council, and maternal side of my real family. =) heh. *blessed child of God* oh well, stress building up! ppl, dont think just because its the holidays we can all just slack hor. its NOT THAT WAY! study hard okay! =) i'll upload the nice pics and crap pics!

BOO

HeY! yupx just came back from a really long day *tireds* hee.. well. had been really busy recently. Studying for maths common test! it was today. i spent a really long time studying for it worx. *sigh* oh well, really must that Daddy for helping me and teaching me maths with his wonderful knowledge,spending his pRecious time after school! thank ah gonG for teaching me maths last minute at like 12 am =X and many others who studied with me or helped me or send me ENCOUraGing smses.. and Ms Xiao for the time of consultations. hee. anyway, today maths paper i felt was better than prelim. but oh well, i dont just feel like aiming to pass.. i want to get good grades!!! so i felt quite sad after doing the paper! it was a real brain drain! anyway after that as a form of reliving stress, i really wanted to just go and chilll outside school before going back to support roadrun and finale! heh. so a bunch of us waled to ten mile junction to eat! i bought chocolate sweets*=pP* cheer myself uP! yup went back and cheered for road run *bah* i really felt like running. =( but oh well... anyway, i was rather depressed today. maybe cos after doing the maths paper..den later i suddenly realise i've so much other "problems". heh, maybe i just tried to be ignorant about them. i guess a chat with priscilla jus brought reality back to me bah.. ahh.. *i cant think of how* hoW??? nah that problem is too deeply mixed up and integrated with many issues. guess i just have too much contentions to actually try to follow up anything =( arh.. how? anyway, besides that problem, i guess i have the problem of something too =X i know.. somehow today even mass and fun dance couldnt take my worries off! luckily had the crappy dota gang ppl to crap me up. lolx the dance that edward and mj did was really entertaining. anyway we went to eat at lot one mac after the campfire.campfire was quite fun anyway! but i really hope i dont mcee the way the mcee did cos it was rather --"" heh.back to lot one macs.. i was half asleep upon reaching lot one! after waiting ages for johnny,daddy, ah yi ah ma to appear (we already ate finish) lol!! yup. it was fun.. *special thanks to ah yi ah ma and daddy and mummy and ah gong and pris* lolx.. for some it was bringing me back to reality,for most ppl mentioned, its for really encouraging me.. i know.. i'm finE! i'll be strong and jia you!! i hope God would bless me thru allll my worries!! God bleessss and I WILL CHEER UP!!! =D *hugs* my family! i'm tired! zzzz

~HapPy biRthdaY soOnlenG daDdY~
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GuanG yi (refers to blog) =pP
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~nerdy Celeste(mugger in the making)~
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HEY! heh.. i've got a super cool new discovery! look at the two nerdy pictures below... guess what.. look really carefully.. i think guang yi looks like my long lost siblinG!! lolx.. anyway.. we concluded on the fact that we really looked like sibling.. haha.. (despite hearing alot of ppl said that before) lolx sO coOl lor.. i think nxt time we shall take such a spec and wear den take pic. heh.its cool!! anyway, i love hand ball pe! its really fun.. heh.. sigh. my stamina has drop due to not doing half the pe lessons.. i think i shall go and run tomorrow.. (MUST get rid of my hidden fats) =pP anyway.. for the DadDy soon leng picture.. ha..HAPPY BIRTHDAY sOoN leNG... look at that picture! i drew the childish card =pP its sO funny toooo... =pP kk.. thats all for my short blogX.

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Heyx. i'm back to update! yup. today has been just a mentally tired day for me. well. yup. its the release of the A level results. Must be thinking what A level has to do with me right? oh well. ALOT! my chinese results are out. well, actually.. i really dont know which was the bigger fear.. i had a very big fear upon going to school today. not really knowing which was the bigger fear.. the fear of seeing people or the fear of seeing the paper.sigh. by the time it was after school, i was already having the fear chill =X luckily my really nice 05S12 ate lunch together.. taking my mind off everything. =\ i cant really describe how i felt today. before the collection of results it really seemed like i was having 'senior"phobia.. plus that butterflies flying in my tummy about my cl results. sigh. being in the super hot hall waiting for the results to be announced, i looked around..and tried not to feel scared. yupx. sigh..sigh..*cant describe how i feel* finally the results ceremony started.well, looking at the list of top students.. 3 distinctions- Darius Koh (wah.. really impressed and motivated by how u made the improvement all the way since promos! i want to follow in ur footsteps) 3 distinctions- Goh Jenn Yang(yup.. really glad to see his name there though it was expected.) actually this two were the only people i knew. yup. *sigH*.after the results session, i rushed back to my CT class to get my results.. *look* i'm really disappointed in my results.. really really. was really feeling just so crap. after that i went back to the hall.. really glad to see so many happy seniors..of course with some crying. it really make me think like what mr tong say in his blog.. "will it be you or will it not be you".. admit it. i'm really scared.as much as i do not want that to be me.. i got really demoralised by my cl. that aside.. i really didnt know which was worst..walking past without stopping to talk cos i really dont know how to.. or my piece of cl results that i've been clutching.. *argh*.. went to talk to Mr Yeo Gng sng,Mrs Chua and Zhan Zhi*cough*. of course, after thinking, being troubled, stoning... i've decided to retake my chinese. yup. if you're reading this.. let me emphasise I CHOSE TO RETAKE MY CHINESE..
here.. i just want to thank this very special people who helped me through my troubled day.....
starting with Mr Yeo Gng Sng (for the wonderful practical advice), Mr Dennis Yeo (for saying "go retake go retake"), Mrs Chua Ting Ting (for the insight on whether to retake), Zhang zhi lao shi(for making me WANT to prove u wrong.. and well.. maybe for ur discouragement *bah*),Serene and Felicia Goh (for being concerned),05s12(for being my best class), Yixin(for running around with me to find teachers and all the motivation),John(for saying u'll "cover" me when u knew i was =\), Joseph(for the "supportive sms") and his doggy(for being on my phone and pei wo study),Eugene(for the concern),Felicia Yeo(for ur concern),daddy soon leng(for saying u'll wait for my cl lessons to end in the future),mummy karmun,ahyi lai lai,ahma lishi,maid suzzie(to all of u.. thanks for the concern seeing my troubled blankout face in mpr3 just now),i think i missed out alot more..but i'm having a mental block now.. to everyone who care~ **to all those mentioned above.. i just want to tell all of u.. u've given me great motivation to get through this.. i'll work hard and get a better grade.. i wouldnt want to disappoint anyone of you. especially my lao shiS minus one*cougH* =)
~~~ Celestine's paradox of stress:Even though you feel stessed,you still feel like u're slacking~~
i'm not sure if my decision is really right.. i know.. i'm just taking the easy way out... =X

haix

yupyup. Friday night is just so tempting.. just so tempting..i know.. after this blog i'll study okay? yup. today had another day in school. had a really nice crap day.. the assembly today was fine..just that well, i dont think i would be going to support the dance club this sunday. just too much work to be done.. mm.. after seeing their performance.. was a little taken aback..cos.. didnt really expect it to be like that..abit = but oh well, i really wish them all the best in their competition! anyway, today assembly talk was on learning style. after doing the short quiz, i was concluded to be a predominant visual person. yup. just exactly the same result as in the council workshop with mr lye. so its expected. guess my notes have to be more visual from now on! maybe sadly, a visual person is not that good too.. cos u keep visualising everything. today i was taking the bus back.. sheesh. i keep on visualising memories. i kind of start to hate this thing called memories.. was just talking to connie on the phone.. yupyup. haha.. i almost talk to her until i cry.. but nahx. i didnt.. cos the sun will always be there(nolink) oh well.. but .. just that nahx maybe its just friday night and i start to get a bit tired. no bluffing.. i've just indulged myself in my studies.. everytime anything else tries to take control of my mind, i just start studying.. well, maybe thats y the bus ride and talking to connie made my mind wonder off. cos i wasnt studying. but, suddenly i realised studying all the time also makes u physically tired! oh well.. i borrowed this christian book from the school library! hope its something that can take my mind off both studies and stuff.. to connie, thanks for that chat over the phone! ay.. mentally getting a little tired.thanks yixin and fel for the BPP trip today! well, people.. on a lighter and more positive note! be optimistic... though i'm tired.. i know i'll push myself harder! study!! yup! like connie told me, her teacher said friday night is not the time to slack. just try to imagine how many friday nights you would have after A levels? what is sacrificing your friday night now! everyone..pia...*God bless* (thanks weijing for the students prayer i pinned it on my wall!)