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Sec ScHooL bBaLLers.. miSs u aLL toO
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aH i misS theiR craPs.. hee.. MusT caTch uP soON
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supeR duPer excO meetings in the pAst woRx
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ITS OVER

yup. crap. lets not talk bout exams. today's paper was.. argh. oh well. lets see.. after paper today.. so sian mummy still at hm,ah yi ah ma daddy still have exams.. my that brothers and dota gang went to play magic card --; fel wait for helmi blah blah.. yeah~ lucky still got ah gong. we went to eat yakun at lot one. heh maChiam like ah gong bring sun nu.. yeah. yum. yakun made me full! hee.. after that we waited for mummy to arrive. waited for 2 trains lor.. hee.. we were even the first customers of world of JJ today. cos we were so bored! anyway, yup thats for the time lapse from 9 -11.45. after that went back to school for meeting. lol felt a bit sad la.. cos everyone going out but i'm going back to school for meeting ahhh... !! on the day i end my wonderful exam! oh well. sian but ah gong crapped all the way back about how pioneer was a shopping centre in town. how convincing and encouraging --; yaaa loR. oh well.. exco meeing from 11.45 to 12.45 and Gm from 12.45 to time unknown.. heh we settled all the updates.. from students centre to merchandise to dialogue session blah blah.. wheee *so exciting*.. bleah. oh well.. i slacked for while in the middle cos exco meeting only starts again at 5 and there was a time lapsE! so i went to play bball with biao jie fel, ahmad abby, my broTherS and some j1.. ahh.. cannot play with my bRos de ah.. lol. i ACTUALLY passed the ball to joseph when john is on my team. i gOT them miXed up lEH!! sua ku..ah..blur.. i thought it was super funny.. whee.. i love bball.. i played it the day before too but this j1 say i ElboweD him! den now everytime see me will "ah.. pain pain" lol so crap. whee. i love playing bball. i miss IT! i miss coach. i miss his stories! i miss training. i miss team mates i miss lynn and jiamin's crap,wanmei and yeu ai, huiting..shihwen.. ahh.. everyone else.. i miss bball court in bp. i miss coach kuku bike that goes "por por por" i miss that tree in bp that he use to encourage us with. i miss the chats. heh ahh.. oh well.. i love bball. always my passion. no matter what~ anyway, after that went back for exco meeting in lt1. i was sweating like.. a taP! heh.. oh well.. meeting took long as we settled details.. whee.. after that we went to council rm to slack, take crap pics AGAIN though this trip is use joseph phone, den sing JI PA BAN super loudly in council rm, dance mass dance and fun dance, making su "stare" at us.. before we went to eat at lot one food court at least i was the only one eating lahhh. ha.. it was a bored day.. but i think a fun one too. though saddening dat i spend it in school. but 6th council rocks! they crap my day up laa.. =) ha.. craps.
oh ya psst, due to pOp demand i try to change my blog skin ah.. but after i slack first k? heh.

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yup pEople! one day was enough. *phew* my major papers are over. i know i know. this does nOT give me the right to slack but =X heh. but still a little slacking today to reward myself ba. i also dont know reward for what. physics was totally messed up. paper two was hard. oh well either that or i am stupid. heh. anyway, i'm blessed! really blessed with many nice friends! heh.. i think i got very nice diS too.. firstly i want to blog bout my this verY blessed di eDi. ha. yupyup! finally, i think you're getting what you're needing. a God-centred relationshiP! hee.. seeing u like that i think God really blessed you! =) of course i still want to thank my this di for his encouragements and all the "talks" we had despite his busYness.. and all the times for being there! even recently! oh well.. but since you're really busy i also dont go kajiaO u as much as possiBle =) jia youx anyway.. goOgO.. i support u! dont lose faith in God too! heh.. this leads me to the second Di i'm blessed with! joSepH. lolx. thaNks for all thoSe encourAgements and for advices and for faTtenIng service =X heh.. yabber and cheering me up! lala.. God bless me. Of course i always say how can i not mention mummy and ah yi and ah ma.. THanks thanks and a million thanks.. *blessed* still have many many concerned ppl.. load loads.. =) xiE xiE. oh well.. enough thanks. shall tell u bout today. after physics paper went lot one to eat with ah gong and yixin.. heh.. yup relieve stress.. Ah.. feel a bit bad cos i ps my class.. (didnt know they were eating too) *haI* anyway sorry class! mm.. after that went back to school to study for while. lol. oh my.. try studying with ah gong and kaiyin! its nO use! heh.. kaiyin itself is crap shang jia crap.. plus ah gong is already sO crap toO! crap + crap = ultimate combo. ha.. kaiyin! miss studying with her so much. studying physics with her reminded me of the days in sec school when we "qi" li jing until he get sO pissed off lor. haha teach us physics until want to vomit blood. and all the crap orchard road trips where this crap girl try to terrorize ppl =pP and mRt trips too.. haha.. kaiyin miss u! anyway, ya.. studying with them is crap! heh. aH gong wanted to give up on his chem! jia you jia you dont give up!!! =D me too! no slackings.. back to studying! wheee.. i am *blessed* .. hey.. mEiyi! i suddenly thought of u.. miss ya girl!

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i'm tired. its tiring. mugging is hard. focusing is hard. i dont want to lose focus. but things just keep coming. i thanks everyone for the encouragement. but i'm still tired. i walked home from school today. everything else seem blur. i only focus on road 1/2 a metre in front of me. the people round me seem blur, the road the car.. the trees.. everything in a whirl. or maybe its just me. thats how i walked my way home. my phone batt died on me b4 i walked. i never bothered to charge it. i never bothered to on it. this seem childish. but i came home and i hid my phone under my pillow. i hate my handphone. i know that means not replying a few people. but i dont want to see my phone. i pretend its lost. i dont care. its lost in my memory. physics paper tomorrow. i want to focus. i'm fustrated. or maybe its just pms. but den again its too fast for that. i'm tired. tomorrow's physics. i'm only half confident. my mind is disturbed.. den again, i lose focus. why must this happen today? i dont want to lose focus. its not that the things are not there. the memories are, the thoughts are. i'm just chucking them. i'm just forcing myself to focus. i dont want to lose focus.using studies to drown myself. or maybe just indulging in it. why must this happen today. its paper 2 tomorrow. i need to focus. i seem to repeat this line. maybe cos i'm convincing myself. i know out there many people is encouraging me. but today i'm just mentally drained. this is so confusing. this is so hard. this is so messy. its messing my state of mind up. still, i must focus. everything is so so so draining. focus focus focus. sorry for making you all worried. i'm just down for a day. i dont feel like talking to anyone. i dont think anyone really understands what i think. okay. or maybe i'm just stubborn. yeah. i'm just a selfish person. i just want to focus on my studies. yup. i'm selfish. i'm tired. i dont want to think. maybe kaiyin is right. its my fault. maybe yixin and joseph is right, i shouldnt blame myself. maybe mel is right i should focus. maybe maybe maybe. dont hold on. hate me. i think it'll be better. i'm not in any state to reply. i'm just sian. ah. dont talk to me now. DONT TALK TO ME NOW! *fustrated* sorry. sorry. sorry.

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once again.. the "happy" family with erm aHYI!!
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