To tell him that YOU love him

Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away

Chorus:
So maybe this time
I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear
is tearin' at my words
What am I so afraid of?
'Cause here I go again
Talkin' 'bout the rain
And mullin' over things
that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth

Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance
to tell him that You love Him

But here I go again
Here I go again

Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Chorus:

But here I go again
Here I go, here I go

Chorus:

This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him

You love him, You love him
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard?

Yup. Maybe this time... i'll speak your Words of Life.
What am i so afraid of?

How do you preach the gospel in chinese and hokkien or even bring up the gospel to someone you've never ever talked about the gospel to? or maybe never even been extremely close to your whole life? yet you know you have limited time left to at least let him hear and know of the gospel once.. at least once.. and you know that you have done at least your best for GOD.

God, give me the wisdom to preach the gospel to my grandfather though i dont know how.
Lord, give him the time to listen..

(oh oh oh oh..... oh oh oh OH) =p

Today is the day..
YOu have made...
i will rejoice and be glad in it.....
(oh oh oh oh).....(oh oh oh oh)

watch it =p
we sang this song during worship today...
i sooooo have it stuck in my head...

Indeed GOD, rejoice and be glad in today and not worry about tomorrow =p

BECAUSE i trust in what you say! (oh oh oh oh).....

I Stand in Awe of You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCacla77PoY

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvelous for words
Too wonderful of comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp you infinite wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your love
You are beautiful beyond description
Majesty enthroned above


And I stand, I stand in awe of you
I stand, I stand in awe of you
Holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of you.

These are the words i have for GOD...
Results are out today....
I stand in awe of my Holy GOD, in awe of HIS grace upon me.

my grades i would say are not bad... 4.37, an improve from 4.33...
my initial reaction was still disappointed!!
ya! (proving that human wants are really never enough)

but after a while i start to give thanks and realised that i stand in awe of a holy GOD who blessed me although i neglected HIM for near a semester..
as i reflected upon how GOD was so small this semester as i was constantly "distracted",
yet GOD in His mavellous grace and infinite wisdom showered His grace upon me and maintained my grades.. i can never understand GOD's blessings...

i thank GOD.. and i PRAISE GOD.. and i say...

I stand in awe of your grace upon an unworthy servant..

THANK AND PRAISE BE TO GOD for my grades..

Amen =)

Will Jesus Find us Watching?

Exams ended!
Managed to catch a movie : Knowing.it was in fact a very remindful movie...
reminded me whether when end times come will i be caught doing something displeasing to GOD?
Would i be watching for His coming or would i be caught earning more money?
or even in the midst of sin?

Matthew 25:1-13

Will we be caught not watching(v.13) like the bride in the parable?

This reminded me of a hymn i remember during church camp in sec sch...

http://nethymnal.org/htm/w/i/willjesu.htm

When Jesus comes to reward His servants,'
Whether it be noon or night,
Faithful to Him will He find us watching,
With our lamps all trimmed and bright?

Refrain

O can we say we are ready, brother?
Ready for the soul’s bright home?
Say, will He find you and me still watching,Waiting, waiting when the Lord shall come?
If, at the dawn of the early morning,
He shall call us one by one,
When to the Lord we restore our talents,
Will He answer thee—“Well done”?

Refrain

Have we been true to the trust He left us?
Do we seek to do our best?
If in our hearts there is naught condemns us,
We shall have a glorious rest.

Refrain

Blessèd are those whom the Lord finds watching,
In His glory they shall share;
If He shall come at the dawn or midnight,
Will He find us watching there?

Refrain

Indeed blessed are those who the LORD finds watching... are we watching for the LORD?
"Knowing" was indeed a remindful movie of LORD's second coming.. i'm looking forward to see JESUS tell me "well done good and faithful servant"

bros and sis, wait and watch upon Him.

GOD's love

LOVE.

This is an amazing word. Over the past weeks, GOD taught me so much about this word "love". LOVE is such a powerful word from GOD. I have learnt to grow to love ppl around me GOD's way.

Can we fanthom such great unconditional love?
Can we even understand HOW GREAT is His love?

Today i stand in awe of GOD's love because i know i am not worthy of that love.. but yet GOD gave me that love. Can you imagine the patience He as towards me? Seeing me sin again and again and again against Him but yet HE LOVES ME!
No human can do that! seeing someone so dear sin and sin and sin and sin and sin again.. but HE response in LOVE.
Isnt His dictionary of "LOVE" sooooooooo great?

I know GOD is growing me this season.. because i've been starting to see Him work and mould me and show me my inadequacy.
I am excited to let Him grow me.

I reflected upon this "LOVE" and i realised i want to be like GOD.
I want to be like Him to love all around me with that UNCONDITIONAL LOVE and Patience.
I am unable to achieve perfect love but i strive to grow to be like Him.

I ask myself what is it to give Unconditional love?

Think along with me here... UNCONDITIONED !! means no matter how much someone hurts you or do not appreciate your love, you still LOVE.

I want to learn to be christ like.

This week towards easter. i know GOD is telling me to love my friends, family and even "enemies" with LOVE.

Went back to my previous church to attend an easter Cantala.. whoo..
i must say i really miss hymns..
the worship style is definitely different from covenant and i know i felt less "stressed" in a way. I guess i understood the meaning of "seat-warming" worship .. it felt really good to be back in that worship =p I started to wonder what convicted me that covenant was the convicted church that i am sure GOD called me to.. haha. i guess my answers are still in the midst of formulating. =)

Nevertheless, the theme of their easter was "no greater love"
it was such a wonderful musical presentation of the everlasting gospel (Matthew).

i was reminded indeed! there is NO GREATER LOVE that GOD's.

AMEN.

Friends.....

Times like this I'm upset because you feel like they missed u out... Or maybe just no longer as important to them..or maybe It's just me and I'm not supposed to feel upset at it. Sometimes I really think it's because they are close and dear to your heart that's why I'm upset..because I know I might had drop most things to trade time to be with them... If only they asked....

I struggle to remind myself to put this upset aside.
That's for my dear friends.
They're constantly on my mind and prayers...
I wonder if I'm actually on theirs....
Times like this you get disillusioned...
And I think I'm not on theirs....

Divine Exchange (blog song)

My heart is captivated Lord, by You alone
captured by the awesomeness of You alone
melted by the grace and mercy You have shown
I stand in wonder I reach to you the one who make the blind can see
who break the chains of sickness with authority
restoring of what was broken
so we may fly again

I live to worship you
I breathe to worship to you
all of my days, your face I'll seek

For as I worship you
You lead me to that place
To that place of divine exchange

This is a love song.
When does your heart gets so captivated over someone?
When you come to a point and say you live for someone, breathe for someone?
When do you seek some's face all your days?

It's a love song to GOD.
As the chorale sang this song, indeed i felt GOD's presence. I just knew GOD was with the congregation. From the stage, i can see people tearing. That alone was an amazing sight. To know that GOD's love can move and touch us so much. We are all people melted my His grace and mercy alone. Yes Lord, lead me to the place of divine exchange.

This was my great comfort admist another busy hurdle crossed.

God, I love you.

Count your blessings

Counted my blessings admist tough times.

1) Flowers to cheer the week =)

2) Sweets to destress...

3) A crappy call from "sister"

4) An e-mail from Yah Ting

5) A decent pass admist expecting the worst form my screw up test.

6) Full marks for Maths was an encouragement.

7) Smses/ messages from council friends

8) Outing with Hehe fam.

I need to learn to count my blessings =)

Fustruration

Celestine is fustrated and realised her tendency to blame GOD first when anything happens.

This week just doesnt seem to get better.
screwed up el test
Stressed up about assignment
stressed up for test
negative thoughts
busyness
and

God adds one more on my list.

wallet disappears in church.
Just when i was doing my membership interview.
Just when i replied i want to settle in covenant because it has a fabulous community.
then next thing i know i cant find that wallet that i brought in to the membership baptism interview room.
I cant help but to ponder what this tells me about that fabulous community i just commented on.

Fustruated at what GOD throws at me all at once.
A complaining heart blaming GOD non stop.

and it happens Just after i calmed down my week when i was worshipping
i reminded myself...crap happens but

"better is one day in your courts than thousand elsewhere"

God sustain please.

7 random things i struggle

1) The unsent sms in my hp drafts.
2) My friends arent easy to meet up today and they mostly dont believe me today.
3) The essay and the test due on Monday
4) Maybe Edi was right when he said "birthdays are just another day" im starting to believe that special festives arent special, they're just another day in your calandar
5) Thinking which part of Singapore i can hide at to study.
6) Wondering why i cant even find someone to go out for dinner.
7) Baptism/Membership interview on Sunday when my heart isnt rested

depressing.... depressing...
stressed... stressed...