2010

Reflections:

I know.. i'm probably the worst child of GOD in 2009. I havent took time to reflect 09 because i know how much i probably have disappointed GOD and so i know i didnt want to do so. Today as i worship GOD with the chorale and the congregation for 3 services i was reminded so many things. I was packing my cupboard and i came across my diary dated 2003. I saw so many entries that would scold myself whenever i dont pray.. i also came across many entries that i wrote out my prayers.. 2003 = Sec 3... i saw that passion i had for GOD that i lost in 2009 which was why i decided as much as i dont want to reflect, i had to.

I remember standing outside butter factory on the eve eve of new year last week. I saw people who would find joy in other things like drinking, and ppl who join the crowd walking not knowing where they are heading. As a rather drunk guy came up to us and say " THIS IS THE DECADE of ours and we have to live it up because 10 years later we will be busy with kids family and stuff" I reflected and realise to him... this 10 years ahead was for him to party it away. I thought... what about me? am i going to "waste" or "party" away this Decade that (like he say) we own?

This was my passing thought on that day....

GOD does not let passing thought just go like that.. the day of new year, i attended dawn prayer. Pastor said "THIS 2010 is OUR DECADE .. and along the same line that we have to live it up" I was thinking .. two very different people (a clubber and a pastor) saying the SAME statement... i was just amazed at how GOD was pointing to me NOT to waste this decade away but to grow and root deep and serve because THIS is OUR decade. Indeed that dawn prayer i realised how i wasted 2009 away.. but GOD's grace and love for me is still unending.. NOTHING can beat being in the presence and dwelling in HIS presence..

I was definitely assured of GOD's love when i served this SUNDAY THREE services. One thing about worship is that from the stage time and time again i see people crying and tearing because i look down and i see GOD's love pouring and outflowing into them that it is so overwhelming. GOD presence is so mightly felt and seen whenever i look down into the congregation...

I know... I KNOW GOD loves us..

I know GOD loves me.. i know GOD loves you.

THANK GOD for 2009.
Sorry for 2009.

but

2010 is here and i will live it for you Lord.